10 years

It's July 1, 2007. 10 years Anniversary for Hong Kong's return to China.

It's been 10 years. The memories of 10 years ago, on June 30, 1997, is still fresh in mind.
Remember that particular night when we were watching the ever amazing fireworks at TianAnMen Square from the dining room while watching the tv a countdown celebration concert.

And today, I'm watching the fireworks on the tv screen. Not as exciting of course. And the fact that I have a mid-term paper tomorrow. And that I have not finished my design, all thanks to this computer.

And I shouldn't be here anymore.

寄生虫

Life has been different ever since entering university. Especially with the people around you.
They just are so unexpected.

Education in university is very different from our primary and secondary way. No more spoon-feeding. You gotta be hands on in order to receive what the course offers.

However, not just anyone or everyone would realise that. A few, for instance, still needs this kind of feeding DIRECTLY, a case worse than secondary school I bet. Got to know one such person in class. Not that I try to despise him, in fact, we tried to accept his way, tried to help him. But somehow, we are doing more harm to him, and more stress to ourselves. Especially to Lana, who is too soft-hearted to refuse his request for help.

So, decided to put an end to this. Or at least, reduce it. And I, was the one facing the challenge. Chaning seats with Lana was suffering indeed, with questions popping up from beisde me every few minutes.

But probably he had a surprise. Or maybe not. I'm just not as friendly as the nice sweet Lana. They were sitting beside an ALIEN~! I just didn't teach the same way. When our aim is to let him back off. It was bad of me, but I had no choice...

It's important to observe the people around you, your coursemates especially. I have been warned of these so-called 'parasites' ever since the first day I stepped into this university. We've gotta face the reality of the society.

Torn between

Things have got me thinking.

Friends have been suggesting that I move out to the area nearby university with them, which is more convenient compared to my everyday-trip to-and-fro Cheras. In some way, I was attracted by the idea, especially now that I seem to lose a lot of time doing things other than study. Besides, I will be able to get help from my knowledgable friends in my studies. And, there will be more time to spend with them, and go lepak-ing with them!

But there are a lot more to be considered.

I am a very 'family' person, I am very attached to my family members. Obviously, I place my family in the first place. I treasure every moment with them, coz you never know what's to come. I don't like imaginating the situation of me moving out, the lack of my role at home...

Staying at home, I get to eat home-cooked food, my mom's delicacies, healthier dishes. I can't stand eating out even for a continuous 3 days. And laundry is another problem. I'm just too lazy to do it...heehee...

If I were to move out, my cost of living will greatly increase. Everythings requires money. Rent, food, fees, transport. I might even need a new laptop, the fact that the computers at the lab isn't always available, and my bad habit of finishing work at the last minute.

I guess this whole idea isn't necessary for now. I only worry about the situation in future, during year 3 and year 4, which is described as much more HECTIC than now.

Any comments?

It's still CrAzY

The last time I would wish to happen. Falling sick right before examination.
And I did.

Caught a flu on Friday after 'hanging' out, prior to my YMBA exam on the coming Sunday.Kinda having a virus going on at home. So you all beware~!!

Have been trying to call in the radio station to win Rynn's new Edition album. Never succeeded when we want something so much. Yet got something else when my itchy hand called in for another contest~!
Which I was hesitating whether I should hang up the phone ... when the DJ Jason answered! Haha~!! And it was another signing on the radio!

My second time now, ever since last year when I sang 'Kao An', and now 'Xuan Lu'~!!
Rynn should be proud of me~ hehehe~~
Next time, I'll come with a guitar...

No chance for me to rest. the sequence goes:

YMBA > Assignment > Mid Term > Assignment > Mid Term > Assignment > ......

I have things planned out, yet I don't know where I should start from.
In other words, I'm lost...

The Tin Heaven

Went for a 2-day tour in Perak on June 8 (finally updating now~). The places where we pass by at least 6 times every year without stopping by...



Well, the destination was Teluk Intan, which became the Final Destination after a change of plan. Right after my horrible circuit theory test, we had a ride through the serving-no-purpose SMART highway......whcih was quite boring really...



On the way to the north, we stopped by Kampar for a famous gigantic "curry bun". As big as a turkey, haha. Then, since mom was so eager, we made a trip to the UTAR campus there. *The fact that I've never even really seen the Setapak campus.* Except that the location wasn't near town centre, the location was superb~!! With modern building styles, huge acres of land, a huge lake surrounding it, and blossoms of cute and rarely-seen flowers!! Wow...

Took some photos, but still cannot upload...hehe paiseh~~

Went off to Taiping, and visited the legendary Taiping Lake. The place looks a lot fresher than Titiwangsa Lake, and I especially love the huge trees which grow from one side of the road and reached their branches to the lake surface!

On the way down to Ipoh, we turned into Teluk Kertang and Matang to take a look at a cheap seafood restaurant reccomended by dad's colleague. TK was a typically small fishing village, which is smaller than my housing estate. The calmness and peace had me wanting to spend a day or two over there!

In Ipoh, we were to spend the night at a cousin's house. Got to see the cheeky Candy again! And she's learning piano! *envy~* We gurls were in luck, coz we got to watch the recorded Lee Hom's Taipei concert!! It was so much better than the Malaysia concert. And especially the guests to stand the stage with him - Westlife~!!! MRVELOUS~!!!

One unlucky thing was, we missed out the 'smelly taufu', which is a favourite of a pasar malam nearby. Hmm...

Next day, We went around Setiawan, hometown of Uncle Tan, where we had a famous cendol and nice Fuzhou food at Air Tawar. Make a trip to a local fame, a shop where delicious 'buns' were homemade.

Finally, at Teluk Intan, we climbed up the slanting tower. A place dear to me, I'd like to study the structure and design of the tower, which is kinda chinese culture influenced. A marvelous piece...

All the way back, we took the coastal road, which is rather long, of course, but a different experience. it's fun to go through different areas and towns. A relaxing view for a city person.

ARRGGGHHHHHHHH~~~!!!

Gimme a wall to bang my head~!!

I missed it!! The show I've been waiting for almost a whole month!
With Rynn! And I!!! Interviewed~!!

Thanks to YZ, who was watching CSI and FORGOT to watch out for that, only she who got to watch the repeat, we can only be her listeners...

Missed another repeat show AGAIN when we were watching Badminton matches~! SHOOOOOTTT...... I can't believe it... Why can't I get a bit luckier when it comes to programmes with Rynn?? Urghhhh....

No break

Tests finally over. Didn't do well.

Tortured myself with a jog after a whole month of no exercise. The body's gone stiff, so no matter how much I hate jogging, I gotta go for it...

Now it's time to bury my head in my Dhamma studies. Seems like it's been a month since I really revised. The pieces are still missing in the brain, when my aunty-and-uncle classmates are almost well-versed in everything!

And finally the Kuan Moo Tuan is open for registration!! Have been waiting for it, afraid that I would ever miss it. It's the best chance to tour Taiwan without being 'robbed' by some people who force you to shop!

AND~ It's a three weeks vacation!!! Walao... Imagine that, for a low price...
But still depends on luck. I do hope so much that I get picked~!!
Wish me luck~!! =)

Mission accomplished... not

Mission: watched Pirates OTC AWE with Kathleen and Catherine.
Accomplished.

Mission: Go karaoke-ing with them.
Unaccomplished.

Mission: Study HARD for Calculus II and Circuit Theory I.
Still under process of accomplish-ing.

Mission: Go for dentist appointment RIGHT before my Calculus test. And mostly be late for the latter.
To be accomplished with great nervousness.

Mission: Study and memorise Fundamentals stuff.
Wait till next week to accomplish.

Mission: Finish my assignments and lab report.
Lazy to accomplish.
No time to accomplish.

Mission: Go karaoke-ing with my new friends, Lana and Pheonix (and probably somebody else).
Hopefully gonna accomplish.

Conclusion:
I am having so many business!! I dreadfully need more time!!

And about the pirates. Not quite happy with the ending. The fact that I don't like heroes dying or changing to other unfortunate form... well, it's okay though. With most movies having the heroes safe and sound in the end, this is quite realistic.
The fact of "Death is certain." applies here.
K-ing plan pao tang again, as Kathleen was late.
Catherine seems certain to challenge the Mount of Kinabalu. Wooo... I salute her!
And she's pretty excited about the Rynn CD she got! =) of course, since Rynn wrote a "Happy Birthday" for her!!
Went all over Times Square looking for Voodoos!! Aiks... But they are quite expensive... thinking of making them by myself now. Just that I do not have the materials ... and time.
Yes! I still love making things, but haven't touch anything ever since Secondary school.
And I still love sketching! Out of the courses this sem, Design seems the 'most enjoyable'! Coz we gotta sketch... for now. And I wish the lecturer would not helpme that much...yet. Wait till my final project.

Life seems a lot more boring now, especially since I now have a class on Friday! There goes half a day of time every week...

Don't look forward to the tests, but look forward to the K-ing plan... 别再泡汤了~!!

*May 19*

Yet another memorable day...

Many of my first-times took place!

Firstly, first time stepping into One Utama. Not for shopping. Went there for Rynn Lim's autograph session!! Was given the chance to go upstage to give Rynn flowers! Thanks to a guy, known by us as Ah Quan, who sponsored 5 bouquets of flowers!! And luckily, among the variety, there was Rynn's favorite sunflower!! We just knew, anyway...haha...

The best thing about that was, we, 5 gurls, got to HUG him!!! My goodness, that was overwhelming! Though the hug wasn't quite a big hug, kinda a 'half hug', but it was a HUG!!!

First time hugging my idol!
First time hugging Rynn!

First time hugging a guy (other than my daddy)!!
~siao d...~

Was often distracted from paying attention at Rynn throughout the session. He presented two songs, Hide and Seek (捉迷藏), the theme song for Sony Cybershot DSC-T100, and Melody (旋律) his hit single! Half way through Hide and Seek, he took photos of the crowd with a Sony camera! The red one! looked hot...haha....



And while singing Melody, he brought a little gurl up onstage. He was singing to the little mei mei but the little gurl, not knowing how lucky she was, just stood there without any expression! Muahahaha... Wet blanket over Rynn!





She was just like a doll, when Rynn carried her in his arm, and talked to her like, "What's your name?" "Where is your mummy?", her face was still blank. Wahahahaha......it was really interesting though!

The second best thing about the event was, YZ won a photo shoot with Rynn!! Finally! I have a REAL photo with Rynn! (The fact that my first one was gone with YZ's stolen handphone.) Though the previous one might have been nicer, with Kym Jin Sha in it!! But anyway, I lurv this one! My first photo with Rynn! =D

Since we have only two CDs, I was lucky to get Catherine's 'help' to get on stage to get autograph (yup, and the chance to be closer to him), since she 'ordered' 2 CDs from me to be signed. Ahaha... he wrote our names on the CDs! And he wrote MY Chinese name CORRECTLY!! Yoohoo~! In such hectic and rushing situation! He has good eyes man... :P


First time I experience the paparazzi way!! At the end of the event, we followed...or CHASED after Rynn from the backstage til out of the main door! And Jin photo-ing him all the way! (Tried to, that is...) The usual scene at the exit: Fish and friends lining up waiting at Rynn's van! And us, thought we were smart, ran to the other side of the van, the window where Rynn was sitting at, but he was busy waving to fans at the other side... YZ knocked on his window to catch attention!! [Now was that even fun??] [YES~!!]

That night, there was a dinner gathering with Rynn. Though YZ didn't win the chance, the crew still called her last minute offering the chance!! But then, we had trouble with transport. Finally, Kae Vin saved the night! Haha... Thank s a lot to him, that we didn't miss out all the fun!!

The event was at Halo Cafe at Connaught Garden, that is, right outside my university!! How unfortunately to miss it! Believe me, it was my first time in that place which I was so curious about!

Rynn was 'interviewed' on stage by Wen Kang. Not quite what we've imagined. He looked quite tired, probably from the long 2-hour autograph-and-name-writing plus photographing session earlier. And probably he was a lil nervous with Wen Kang's interview.





Asked him a question (and thanks to Kae Vin again, for the idea, since my blur&tired mind couldn't produce anything that time), got a nice reply, someting like he wishes to learn the keyboard. [Ahh...nice...similar to my dream to learn the piano...]

Next up, a GAME! The idea really woke me up! Haha! I as usual will never forfeit the chance! And so, I was singing with Rynn right by my side! Ahaha~!!

Singing~!

The songs challenged were [Owl (猫头鹰)] and [Fly's Tears (苍蝇的泪滴)]! People say I was steady and calm, they didn't know I was struggling to get the lyrics right! Which brought to the comment by WK that I was reciting prayers! "......" Lots of thanks the others for their support!!

YAhOoO!!! I won the game!! Ahaha~!! Got a hamper and an autographed Hit Single [Melody] CD (only for promotion in Taiwan!!). In the end, another Photo session with Rynn!!! Aha... that's the price to pay for being a camera's spokesman! Hehe...jk jk...

Photo @ Halo Cafe with Rynn

After sending Rynn off [waving slowly (yet madly) at the dark van until we saw a hand moving, waving at us], YZ and I got interviewed by a TV station!!! Erh... wasn't in my best appearance, my mind was blank, and was saying stupid things... arghhh...all the way messing myself up!! YZ seemed calm though...
Anyway, accordingly, it will be aired by June in Asian New Force on Ch35 Astro! You can see how horrible I was...

Btw, still can't upload my own photos.

Special thanks to Kae Vin, Hue Yee and i-tung for the photos!
Other photos from sinchew-i.com.

More than words

A week down the semester. Many happenings.

The pleasant ups. Despite the fact that the classes are so lack of gurls (which is normal, of course), It's nice to have a friends, a friend - a gurl - to spend the days with. No need to hear so much nonsense from those guys, at least...

And now really gettig the chance to practise my going-downhill English. Yes, speaking English in a rather funny half-past-six way.

Getting a highest score in Foundation last semester. Nothing related to my degree course.
Accounting.
When my mom knows of it, I wonder what she'll say...

For some of the days, I do not need to wait for the U shuttle van!! Yoohoo!! My friends would give me rides when possible, which helps save my average of half an hour time!! Thank you guys, muaxx muaxx~!!

Roses and lavenders blooming in my garden. I never quite believed when Kathleen said she tried planting the roses. Wow...

YZ was lucky enough to win a prize... To have a photoshoot with Rynn!! Yikes!!
And we are gonna bring a Canon camera to a Sony showcase.... '_'ll

In the badminton world, Chong Wei is back on track! Though Jin and I was torn between supporting him or Bao Chunlai! Ahaha... The Koo-Tan team could have made it further. But then , KKK seems to be going off track... one man's show, his coach Rexy commented. What will become of them?...

Unexpectedly, conflicts happened a lot. Jin, whom, as usual, has the problem with her friend, whom I think is quite annoying too.

Kathleen, in the middle of MUET, faced conflicts just before her speaking test. Pity her, to have that kind of friend as group member. Glad she made it through.
And another friend, who seem to turn out fine. Hah...
These few things, made me talk the most about Dhamma in one go! Anyway, I enjoyed it. Glad that I helped, Kathleen. ;)

a U-mate, Angie, faced a huge twist in life (I believe). Failed in her attempt to get PTPTN loan, she had to switch course from an accounting degree to a management diploma. A huge difference. It's such a pity, as she loved her previous course so much. She would be finishing her course by the end of this year instead of completing 2 more years for degree.

I can never escape from those lil things which keep haunting me. It always seem that I am the only one who has to go through this. Dealing with people whom you know are close to, yet you never know what is going through their minds.
People who are, naturally, superior than you.
People you care for, yet it seems you keep hurting them.
People whom you love from the bottom of your heart, yet you never let them know.

It's definitely a tough task trying to face it. As I don't have any idea how to face it, with the given conditions. It bothers me, it haunts me, it's killing me. I'd rather be jogging 15 rounds of the garden than to be tortured in this way!

I can't say it out. I can't find my words right. I'm never good at speech, ever since I was young. I can spend the whole day without saying a word. I can't speak my mind properly. They think they do, but no one actually knows what I think and feel.

It all comes back to miscommunication. The difference of mind between the generation. Some people who live to make others' lives miserable. Like them. Like me. I, making myself miserable.

Thinking that the world is not fair. And I have to bear it by myself.
With a lot of bragging and blogging where no one really sees me.

两个人

她，原是个开朗活泼的女生。但近两年来，发现她沉默多了。
她喜欢朋友，喜欢热闹。可是这段日子，她似乎都不快了。

也许，上中六不是最好的选择，但也是唯一的选择。

认识了‘朋友’的真面目。见识了社会的真现象。
自大，骄傲，‘kiasu’，背叛，甚至是马屁精的存在。

她 很累了。
也许，是学业的压力。
也许，身边的人，让她失去了自由。

世界是不公平的。莫非只有强者能发挥自己？而所谓‘弱者’就得做路灯，靠边站？

～～～

她是个孤独的人。拥有自己的世界，神秘的世界。

她发现了自己的兴趣，却得放弃自己的梦想。

有毅力，没能力。

走出社会，看了看世界。发现很多种人，很多的事。

发现她和别人的不一样。

认识了不少的人。

也认识了自己。

她的付出，也许让一些人佩服，但她知道，生活并不只是这样而已。

她其实缺乏信心去面对她的将来。

她也需要周遭的人给予的鼓励。

而她，也不想让大家失望。

世界是不公平的。但一切也得自己去争取。

世界是没有所谓的永恒。没有的，不一定得不到。拥有的，不一定不会失去。

把握机会，珍惜所拥有，才是真实的。

～～～

两个人。两个女生。两个性格。两个世界。

成了朋友。

友谊不需永恒，只要真诚。

不需在你左右，只要互相扶持。

～～～

Kathleen，我们有缘相遇，是很珍贵的事。和那一班同学同班，也是缘分。

也许他们已不在了，或者变了。是没办法的事。

嘿，至少，我是对妳‘真心’的！

世界那么大，未来的路还很长，会遇见的人如此的多。

你也不必担心。船到桥头自然直。

坚强多一点，忍耐多一点，这一关你一定过得了的！

我也一样陪着你，一起努力奋斗！！

记得，你并不是孤单的。　；）

A new life

Sitting in the computer lab, wishing the time passes faster. My eyes drooping, my brain slowing down. Was supposed to be lying comfortably on a sofa at home watching tv, but now, as a change in time table, I gotta wait from 10 pm to 4pm for the next class! ...

Stepping into my degree program now. First day, and as predicted, almost no gurls! Luckily I got a new friend, yes a gurl. And we are the TWO 'ladies' in class!! '_'ll
Though she is taking Mechatronics engineering, the courses we are taking this semester are the same. So for now, I'm okay... hopefully.

We have a same female lecturer for Calculus 2 and Circuit Theory 1. From Sarawak. Her English pronunciation sounds weird, Malaysian Chinese slang...haha... but I guess she'll be good. ;)

First time eating outside the campus! Whew... this gurl... But still, spending a lot on food just ain't my type. That's why mom's home-cooked food is da best! ECONOMIC + DELICIOUS!!!

Crazy days are awaiting me. My spirits aren't prepared yet. The lazy brain still craves for the pillow. Ahh... but what to do? for the sack of the future, I gotta strive. Strive for what?... Good future lor....

Right now, kinda torn between choosing Engineeing Design or Computing for Engineers. Especially since there are limited places for ED. But then, mostly going for ED. Since I have friends there..hehe!

So much more to do. So much more I have not done....

~Happy Wesak~

Yesterday. A Wesak as usual as any other year. The unusual thing is without YZ with us...who is having exam back in her U. Jin went volunteering at BISDS stall with her friends. For her Pendidikan Moral project of course, and even got a T-shirt in return for the work! (Ehh... I should have gone too, rite??!)

There was a huge lantern right outside the Asoka Hall. Unfortunately I do not know the story behind it...hehe...but it looks good anyway!

An attraction is the exhibition of Amarekha in the Asoka Hall, which is first brought out from Sri Lanka! It is composed of 34 wooden sculptures illustrating 26 mudras (postures) of the Buddha.

Just struck my mind that I forgot to take a look at the class projects. Wonder what became of my clay-man...

Wesak marks the day of birth of the Buddha, His Enlightment day, as well as the Parinibbana (death) of the Buddha. This is the day (probably the ONLY day) that the Buddhist Maha Vihara is flooded with people. Many Buddhists (including once-a-year Buddhists) as well as non-Buddhists (some Indians, I believe) flock in, a huge portion aiming for the vegetarian lunch. Yet, a 'very usual thing'.

On this day, i expect a lot of peace and joy. Yet on the other end of the world, we heard of demonstrations and fights, 'in conjunction' of Labour's Day.

Anyway, Happy Wesak and Happy Labour's day!

Trouble makers

As if my holiday is meant for that.

Now my job after waking up in the morning is to clear the shit of SQUIRRELS which is all over my garden!
Ever since last few weeks, the little creatures have seem to go out of their mind, creating 'designs' all over our nice clean tiles! ARRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!! They are CRAZY!!! And almost every morning, we gotta clean after them, the floor, the windows, the laundry lines, and even the laundry left out there overnight! This seems even worse than taking care of a baby! It's like those times when we had to chase after a rat all over the place in our old house!!

Then, now, it's the dear printer's problem again. It just loves to give me problems. And everytime, it is I who is responsible to fix it, as if I am to blame for its misbehaviour! Why why why...... What the hell is wrong with it, I still can't figure out...

Tomorrow's Wesak, I do hope the squirrels do give me a break!

SIENness...

1 week passed. Can't believe I only have a week of holiday left.

And the week spent? So much of ups and downs. Was at my lowest of spirit on Monday. Got mental attacks from a person so dear to me. I hate it. Yet it will happen every once in a while. Almost always when I'm on holiday. As if my holiday is meant for this treat. It's hard to figure out who is really wrong. Still figuring...

Tuesday and Wednesday. Tough days. MORE renovation to the toilet and tank and pipes. Clean the WHOLE house continuously. This is what you call SIEN~!!

Tried filling my other hours with Dhamma studies. Often get distracted though. So glad Dad asked about my Abhidhamma book! That means he's willing to explore more about Dhamma! I've always wanted to 'expound' the Dhamma to my parents, which is the biggest dana towards parents. But obstacles appear in the whole process, making the already tough task much slower.

Anyway, I got my YMBA certificate for last year's exam! Achieved a Distinction!! The important thing isn't the piece of paper, but the things learnt from it. About life. About death. About rebirth. Impermanence. Unsatisfactoriness. Selfless. Kamma.
Probably, as suggested by a friend of dad, I can give my service to Sunday school! Haha... we'll see...

Mom bragged about career again. About how good accountancy is. About how smart XXX sisters are to choose the course. It seems like the everyone else who have nothing to do with accountancy can pack their bags and leave this planet.

I wish I could. But only after attaining Nibbana.

Hurt

Again!

While playing badminton, slipped and fell sitting on the ground. Which was ugly.

Then, later got a nice basketball BOUNCING off my HEAD!! Yet it didn't hurt much, just shocked on how the ball miraculously landed on such a 'right' place.

Worst of all, while playing basketball, the ball hit my hand in a weird way and so caused my a SPRAIN in my finger!! Thought it was nothing at first, but gradually the joint got swollen and red. Then it became a sausage... haha!

And so, most of my chores are affected. I'd have a hell of time if my exam wasn't over. Had some trouble trying to play guitar in class. Yet I can still be blogging here. I use TWO fingers! Haha!!

Looks like I was quite unlucky for the day. Firstly, was surprised when I was charged RM2.00 for a bus ticket. The word 'UTAMA' costs more!! The company really knows how to make money. Then comes the unfreaking yet annoying accidents. Later on, I gotta wait more than half an hour for a bus. Public bus is a nuisance, really.

On this very day, Rynn Lim will be at Astro office shooting for a tv show, and at night he will be attending AiFM concert at Genting. As usual, I'm not able to attend. So sorry for Siokyean who almost got the chance to attedn the shooting...

Talking about the tv show, it's a new program on Astro which deals with entertainment news. The emcees are newbies. Since the program was at its first episode, there were many mistakes here and there. Until the fact that, they STOPPED Rynn from singing and playing guitar when he was just about to enter chorus part!!! Such an idiotic situation. It's realy not Rynn's fault or microhpone problem now. It's the emcees' problem!! Wonder what in th world they are rushing for.

Another thing was, when John called in to say some words of congratulations, they hurried him off the line so soon!! My goodness. I was shocked then, how unprofessional they are.
Hello? Is that how you treat artists? It's your program but... RESPECT THEIR PROFESSIONALISM!!!

these days

The final days... ... to relax.

Anyway, not too relaxed. The are a whole lot of things which I planned to do during the holiday, but when holiday comes, I go lazing around...

Anyway, the most important thing is, start revision on YMBA exam. Or I will not have enough time when the exam approaches, especially since I'll start degree course next semester. And because of this exam, I will not have the chance to perform during the Parents' Day. Well, kinda feel sorry for them, but then, this exam came first.

Looks like it's more of a revision of MBE Senior 1 which I sat for 3 years ago. Hopefully it won't be too tough. Lots of stuff like cittas, cetasikas, Niyama, 5 Aggregates, filial piety, downfall of man...... whew! That certainly will keep me busy.

Thought I would look up some notes about engineering from eAdvantage. I wonder if it will benefit me, or just waste my time! Hehe... I'm not very smart, you know!

Then, planning to watch a movie 《醒狮》 with my sis, since there seems no one else to date. Hins Cheung stars in the movie, that's why...haha. Though my sis is a fan of 吴振宇! Hah...

Rynn is back in Malaysia!! Though not officially for his album promotion, it's still a nice treat to his interviews on various radio stations! Miss him sooooo much!! Oh, adn found another fan of Rynn - Chooi Mun! Haha! DT, Hins, badminton, now Rynn!!! She asked me to help get get an autographed album, if I attend his autograph session. Sure I will, my dear! More chance to go upstage, and close to RYNN!!! :D

So glad that the six formers are having activities again tomorrow. But Kathleen will be arriving later, so hopefully Chooi Mun will play with me. Haha... can't wait!


The adoring Darlie smile ;)

YIKES!!

One more paper to go. Yet I seem to be celebrating already.

Spent the weekend like a crazy headless thing. Saturday. Went to Chong Hwa (probably the last time) for sports with the six formers. Played badminton like I've never played before. Somehow, thankfully, I managed to revive a little little little bit of skills after the long 2-hour of game. It was fun playing with C Mun, who hit the shuttle high! Hah, she the only gurl who plays a bit like me, besides Ley Ley. And so 'ngam key' with me! (Just found out that she too adores Hins Cheung!)

Then went on to basketballing with Kathleen. Juen and T Ching came along, seemed to play, but were actually really busy people......with their handphones. Lack of players, but still played like hell. Now that's fun! Exhausted yet much better than jogging which is one word... SIEN!!
Read a magazine mentioning exercise makes the brain grow smarter. AM I a whole lot smarter now?? Wahahahaha......

The rest of the day, my hand was energy-less and CRAMPED but still managed to play the guitar. With my eyes closing any moment. Then the nest day, my whole body goes stiff. As if I gotta pay for all the excitement.

Watched the semi-finals of Asian Badminton Championship that afternoon. Surprisingly (they lost the first game) and thankfully Tan Boon Heong and Koo Kien Keat marched into the finals. However, they still lost to their seniors Lee Wan Wah and Chong Tan Fook, who are higher-ranked than they are. To say the truth, their skills seem to have dropped, which is quite disappointing of course. (Hope they aren't washed away by fame.)
Anyway, it's never always a stream of successes on the road.
For everyone.

Had to return from Brickfields after Dhamma class at Sunday School by ourselves. Stopped by KL Sentral to buy lunch, burgers which cost RM5++... MD of course. Meanwhile, mom and dad and a cousin were having lunch with a friend's family. A meal very expensive... so expensive. RM1000+!!! A 10-person course dinner! My goodness, I could have bought a nice new handphone or half a new PC with that!!!

It feels strange when people keep asking me about my future. Feels dizzy thinking recalling the books I've flipped through in library. I really hope I can handle it then. Then I'll have to face a whole class of guys. sienzzz......

Jin started to make me teach her some notes on guitar. Hehe... probably influenced by Rynn!

Sardine

Sardines are nice to eat, but not nice to be.

Especially when the LRT station is so packed with rows and rows of people and you have seen many trains leave without you and when you do not even know where the queue you are in leads to.

Especially when the LRT is AGAIN in UNSCHEDULED DELAY which have been a common 'treat' ever since I traveled to Cheras and back.

The last place I want to be is the LRT and LRT station. When my relatives come down to KL from Kedah, they would brng the kids to have a ride in the LRT. But those little nieces and nephews never know my story. HAHA!

Sat for General Biology paper today. Almost fainted during revision. Wondering why we had to study so much about xylem and phloem and germination and photosynthesis bla bla bla when... WE ARE NOT PLANTS??!

And sometimes I do wonder, since we humans are studying exploring so much about the world, history and all, do animals too have their own books and library collections? Hehehe... they do have their languages, so do they 'write' them research down?

Halfway through the paper, it started raining cats and dogs and rats and frogs... distracting noise.
And suddenly a huge BOOM in front of the exam hall!!! The thunder STRUCK our building!!!
Nice show... then went on with my paper...

Reached home at about 7.25pm. It was still drizzling.

我在淋雨中...

Alien again

Went for blood donation today.
Almost forgot that my blood vessels are 'abnormally' located. Alien again...

Yup, my blood is still red.

Get sleepy easily. The fact that I have to digest and absorb the tons of Biological terms and the unfinished report.
AND accounting, computing studies, probability & statistics.
Ain't much compared to degree courses, I know...

And thanks to the Biology lecturer who changed the date of our last practical (and I did not know...REALLY) that I saved 6 hours (3 hours transport and 3 hours lab time) which can really be spent more meaningfully!! Anyway, thanks to the guys who did the experiments...

Final Exam coming. Really should be studying now. But waiting for someone to send over the result. I'm still waiting... damn.

FLYING!!!

宇中念出了我的留言喔!

高兴得不得了...哈哈! 快飞起来了!

他在hitoradio当代班主持人。很庆幸能上网收听叻。。。

他说呢，很多人都要他说笑话或冷笑话。（但他想不起吧。）
看到网上有人留言，写了个冷笑话，就分享咯！（也就是我的留言咯！！）
他说还蛮好笑的。

~
一位老婆婆, 有一天去相馆拍照。
摄影师说，“我说‘一，二，三，照’，就拍咯！”

准备好后。。。

摄影师： “一，二，三， 照！”

结果老婆婆跑出去了。
~

不好笑吗？最后宇中好像被工作人员泼冷水了~！
哈哈。。。真可爱！


今天有一点‘宇中缘’耶。姐姐也莫名其妙的赢到电台的奖品！关于宇中的游戏咯！

可是今天没下雨。热得发慌了！！！

Cheng Beng

Apparently, cheng beng this year was much celebrated.

Proofed by the traffic jam on North-South HigHway in the wee hours of 2 AM!!

Right, and I reached home only at 3.40 AM!! It was already jammed some distance after the Ipoh toll. Dad had to exit the highway and chose the trunk roads, or we would still be stuck there and only reach by 5 or 6 am!
And, I was in U by 7.10am! Coz my dad had to send YZ to UKM. At least I did not need to take the LRT...

This cheng beng was quite a different one. Firstly, my cousin was hospitalised for bladder infection. (Wasn't necessary to be in private hospital, which really eats the patient's pocket!) And so, her parents (one of whom I've 'mentioned' earlier) weren't around. doesn't matter though ;p

On mom's side, grandpa and grandma's cheng beng was on Sunday. different from previous years, this time the sunshine wasn't too hot. No need of playing hide and seek with the sun! Ahaha!

Got to spend the afternoon at Star Parade since we were only leaving at night. We had LAKSA!!! Hmm... superb! Such a heaven for delicacies! Oh too bad, we won't be returning til end of the year...

homecoming

err... not really. Haha.

Went to Chong Hwa OFFICIALLY today! (after much consideration ;P ) It's like 3 years since I've taken public bus to school. At least now I do not need to change buses.

Finally collected my SPM certificate! Then hang around at the school like a fool (somehow most of my friends have taken theirs...) til their classes finish.

Had a chance to talk to Pn Ng when I saw her in class (that means I disturbed her class ;p). She looks so thin now... Probably she still doesn't remember my name... but know me as my sister's sister...!

Anyway, seems like everyone (yup, those friends) were the same as ever. Juen just screamed and shouted and jumped around...with big actions as usual... when she saw me. '_'ll
Met some of the other old friends like Pui Yeng, Wai Hong, Shuwen, Huoy Ying... Hmm... Everyone looks good in their uniforms! Kekeke...
Theng was absent. Wei was still the same her. Cool. Smart. Attractive~haha! Had a long chat with her. Then Ley Ley came! This cute 'lil' gurl skipped class~~!! Wahaha!
Ley Ley ar, dun oways play play liao la... A Level is more important! Study lar!

Thought I could have a long chat with Kathleen. Apparently, she pit dai me! Arghhhh...

Sports Club now must be a lot more fun... when the six-formers are sentenced with the co-curriculum order! People like Wei and Theng never showed up last year...sweat. Though I'm truly bad in sports, still love the fun of it!

Chong Hwa is changing now... students, teachers, canteen hawkers, surrounding. There are some boards bout school vision blablabla... hung around the school building, which i bet not many people really note of! Two shelters, a TV at the canteen (which works!!), a 'Tennis wall'...
Didn't see the principal... saw that Pn Zurina got more plump!
Oh, and the school got smaller... the area that is... government chinese schools are so kesian...

Will be some time til I meet them again. Hope I get to join their sports club activity next time.
ALL THE BEST guys!

我

我是个很奇怪的人。是吧？
感觉从前冰冷大人，变得越来越沉默了。
有时侯觉得独来独往的日子未必不好，自在且充实。但偶尔也会怀念那些热情的朋友们。

我说我是个胆小鬼。甚至，有时侯还有些coward。
我本来就缺乏信心，担心这些，又放不下那边，结果什么事都做不成。每当我放胆去尝试某些东西时，却总是被泼冷水。朋友，是个例子。说什么 friends forever, 结果呢？根本月不了她们出门，就连班聚会似乎也不出席。

再来，父母。。。 早前，妈让我不必去吉他班上课本了，反正学吉他‘只需3个月’。唉，以为她女儿我是天才咩？如果真的是，那以我党我军年前自修，今天或许已有一手了！
上星期六呢，老爸也说，让我停了吉他课。哇，干嘛？！惹祸了我！
真搞不懂，到底是不是不想载送我上下课呀？！又不让我自己开车出门，那license是考来爽的吗？偏偏每星期载送姐姐或她的东西又可以？
真厉害，高估我的吉他skills, 却又低估我开车的skills！！
更讨厌的是，每当看见别家小孩有多少，多大的成就，总爱拿来和我们比一比。很爽咩？一直restrict 我们，不肯让我们有自己的发挥空间，却又要我们跟别人一样好！
哟，这是什么世界呀？？！！

妹妹也真会气人。爸要我在课业上帮助她，我也尽力了。可是，唉。。。不知她是否有心学习。教了，说了，常犯错误也都指出来了。她忘了一些是正常的，但她却怪我不耐烦，脾气不好！！听了多心痛啊。。。对她苦口婆心，她嫌我们烦，啰嗦，还摆臭脸！结果，罪名似乎也是我担当了。。。

我是否太没主见了？
可是，我的意见，我的想法，有谁放在眼里？
好女儿，好姐姐，好妹妹，好同学，好朋友，好学生，。。。似乎没有一样是干得好的。
很多很多东西，只好都捌在心里。很多事情别人不知道。很多话题，都不多聊。渐渐地，话也少了。朋友也少了。
偶尔，会发泄发泄，别人以为我疯了。
回到了从前的我。很沉沉默的我。沉默得。。。有点儿像自闭。

我。。。是外星人。别人不会理我，偶尔用奇异的眼光看我。
我。。。是个长得像人类的外星人。

而我的飞碟坏了，回不去自己的星球，自己的世界。。。

Who says our English is teruk?

Just see below - Ours is simple, short, concise, straight-to-point, effective etc.........

WHEN GIVING A CUSTOMER BAD NEWS
Britons: I'm sorry, Sir, but we don't seem to have the sweater you want in your size, but if you give me a moment, I can call the other outle ts for you.
Malaysians: No Stock.

RETURNING A CALL
Britons: Hello, this is John Smith. Did anyone page for me a few moments ago?
Malaysians: Hello, who page?

ASKING SOMEONE TO MAKE WAY .
Britons: Excuse me, I'd like to get by. Would you please make way?
Malaysians: S-kew me

WHEN SOMEONE OFFERS TO PAY
Britons: Hey, put your wallet away, this drink is on me.
Malaysians:No-need, lah.

WHEN ASKING FOR PERMISSION
Britons: Excuse me, but do you think it would be possible for me to enter through this door? Malaysians: (pointing the door) can ar?

WHEN ENTERTAINING
Britons: Please make yourself right at home.
Malaysians: Don't be shy, lah!

WHEN DOUBTING SOMEONE
Britons: I don't recall you giving me the money.
Malaysians: Where got?

WHEN DECLINING AN OFFER
Britons: I'd prefer not to do that, if you don't mind.
Malaysians: Don't want la...

IN DISAGREEING ON A TOPIC OF DISCUSSION
Britons: Err. Tom, I have to stop you there. I understand where you're coming from, but I really have to disagree with what you said about the issue.
Malaysians: You mad, ah?

WHEN ASKING SOMEONE TO LOWER THEIR VOICE.
Britons: Excuse me, but could you please ! lower your voice, I'm trying to concentrate over here. Malaysians: Shut up lah!

WHEN ASKING SOMEONE IF HE/SHE KNOWS YOU.
Britons: Excuse me, but I noticed you staring at me for some time.. Do I know you?
Malaysians: See what, see what?

WHEN ASSESSING A TIGHT SITUATION.
Britons: We seem to be in a b it of a predicament at the moment.
Malaysians: Die-lah!!

WHEN TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED
Britons: Will someone tell me what has just happened?
Malaysians: Wat happen Why like that...

WHEN SOME ONE DID SOMETHING WRONG
Britons: This isn't the way to do it here let me show you, ...
Malaysians: like that also don't know how to do!!!!

WHEN ONE IS ANGRY Britons:
Would you mind not disturbing me
Malaysians:Celaka u...

See, isn't it simple, short, concise, straight-to-point, effective etc......... ?

Nice day! :)

two birthdays

It should be fun to have two birthdays in a row. If 24 hours aren't enough for you.

Today is my "Chinese" birthday! Haha... that is, my birthday following the Chinese calendar.

Can't believe I'm now in the last year of my teenage. Don't feel like growing up into an adult. It seems a lot that have changed this past year. My dreams, my aim, my life, my carrier, my personality.

If last year I was free and hanging around, this year I am preparing for my final exam and degree program for next semester.
If last year I was still busy applying for the numerous scholarship and deciding my future, I am almost settled down this year.
If last year I was still scrambling around with my guitar not knowing whether my strokes or strumming ways are proper, Then I'd say I am a lil better this time.
If last year I was still trying to get more news about F4's concert in Hong Kong, This year, I'm stuck with Rynn Lim!! (I still like F4 though... ;p )

Life was slow, but much. Strangely... People come, and go...
Some old friends still in contact, some seem to be lost in the air. Some new friends are nice, some... you'll have to find out later.
Don't judge a book by it's cover.

Anyway, relatives are coming tonite, should I ask for angpau? Haha...

祝我生日快乐。 ；）

IT'S MY DAY!!! my lonely birthday...

I wonder if I've been waiting for this day...

Anyway, it's MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!
March 22nd... always thought this date was the most beautiful date...muahahahaha.....

It's kinda boring to be having this day without dad and YZ around... feels lonely.
It's a thurday, and it has started pouring outside. If not for the monitor which went crazy last night, I would have been on my way back home. Arghhh...

Anyway, I try to make myself as happy as ever. As people wishes us "happy Birthday". But the level of happiness dropped a little since I cannot get online at home... (here i come again...)

No celebration today... since dad isn't around. Unless the roti canai from Auntie Cheong (who shares the same birthday!) counts! Hahaha... It's a heaven that I can rest a while after the hectic assignments...and group members.

Giving myself a treat by not touching anything academic...! Hanging around, watching teevee, playing guitar, and eating! But will have nothing to do tonite then... hmm...

Wish Jens a happy birthday too! ALl the best to him in his upcoming exam!!

Thanks for the wishes, everyone! ;D

Terrified

A terrifying evening indeed.

As I wasn't able to cross the road quickly today, because of the cars that kept coming, little did I know that 10 minutes later I would be so thankful for not doing that fast.

For a while later, I heard a huge scream and saw a malay guy snatching a malay woman's belonging!! It was just on the pavement that pedestrians often use. Th woman obviously had no intention of giving up and kept struggling with the thief even until they reached the Waja waiting for them up the road! In the end, however, I guess the thief had their way.

I as a pedestrian, wasn't able to help out anything. Now I experience how helpless women are when it comes to this. The theives must have targeted the lady when they drove down the road. Recalling, I remember seeing a Waja dropping off someone at the sidewalk. After crossing the road, I recall the snatch thief walking in front very weirdly. The thieves in the car must have targeted the lady as they came down the road. And the car passed by me... I was so close to being a victim! So thankful that I am here, safe and sound. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu.

Though not the victim, I gradually get frightened of the incident. Today onwards, I will be so much nervous whenever I walk back home. And probably my ctions were right. People out there! Especially the TARC or UTAR students, better not to walk on the pavement; or if you need to, watch out for cars and motorbikes!! And, don't use or hold your handphone or purse while walking!

Hope the lady is okay now. Take care guys... be aware!!

YESterday

A historical day again.

We finally got a digital camera after the long wait. Haven't had a family camera ever since the last one (film camera) went blur... thus, 'broken down'. Though that relative of ours said he would offer the same cam with 50 ringgit less, I doubt it... If he was willing to give in, then he would have offered a good price in the beginning.
Anyway, saitsfied with our choice. ;)

March 18 2007 is just as important. Koo Kien Keat and Tan Boon Heong did it again!!! THE CHAMPION OF SWISS OPEN 2007!!! Such an exciting game, both in semi-finals as well as finals! Rubble sets.... whew... got me jumping up and down!! And of course, shouting, screaming, groaning! Wahahahahaha......

After this day, the 'tragedy' comes... Kien Keat and Boon Heong to shave off their hair!!!
So sad... had to have a last good look of their hair last night...


~~~

10 years ago, on the same day, a truly really sad day. Have never thought my grandfather would leave us. It was an evening, still cold. Had never seen my dad with such a terrible look on the phone.
Mom was back in Malaysia then. Unfortunately the 4 of us in Beijing weren't able to say goodby to grandpa. How I miss him. Dad must be missing him so much more...

19

Somehow, there's a new record of the most number of A's achieved in SPM.

19 A's. Which turned out to be 18?

For many people (especially adults, who have children), they would say. "Wow, see how brilliant!" And would start the comparing and 'motivation' with their children. They would pay so much attention on the number of A's, on the results of exams.
If you are a Malaysian, you'd know the standard of this particular exam. And, ... (there are things which we 'should not' say too much here...)
Anyway, what's the purpose of taking so many subjects when you are actually goin one path only? It is obviously a race of a number of A's, who knows there might just be a 20-A's-scorer next year? So the 'standard' of SPM will go 'higher' year by year? Come on, show your talent by your real skills, not through a long and full and beautiful result slip!


It's only a few days from being 19. Feel a bit heavy, having to leave 18. Maybe 18 sounds better...haha... sounds more relaxing and free. 19 will be a start of a new part of life... will be facing a lot of unknowns. No more sitting around, no more surfing the net without any assignments or projects in mind. No more lazing around.

I do hope I would still have time to play my beloved guitar. Ooh... I have to!
Or I would go crazy!!!

19. Sounds old or elder for the younsters; sounds young for the adults. Some 19-year-olds have achieve something in life, some are still looking for their future, some might have lost their way, some are striving hard to live a life.

Some guy at Taiwan might have made a fame from his talents in music, being able to play numerous musical instruments and having a composing talent. At 19.
Some gurl in M'sia has just known how to do some strokes and strumm badly on the guitar.

Such big variety of people in this world. Some envy others. Some just don't give a damn.
Oops... now I'm doing the comparing...sweat...

Well, Doesn't matter. As long as I do my best. So much that I want to do. ;P

本性难移

人，活到了一把年纪，想法竟是如此，真可悲。

连我这个后辈的，都以对他们非常绝望。
真没想到，自己的亲戚也会是如此的固执！自大！厚脸皮！无知！！！

日子越久，他们越过分。连一直以来忍着他们的人都发火了，可以想象事情的严重性吧。。。

也许该庆幸当天他没来，要不然，真丢了我们的面子！
不来就不来，以为我们很稀罕吗？哼！

唉。。。

很庆幸自己生长在一个有教养，有规律的家庭。虽然烦恼还是存在，但至少我们懂得生活的基本方式，懂得打理自己的生活。

很庆幸父母亲让我们从小就学习怎么生活。虽然有保母，但也不让我们几个小瓜被宠坏。如今我身边的小朋友们或许很‘幸福’，有女佣伺候着，生活无忧无虑，很自在，要什么有什么，甚至是衣来伸手，饭来张口。但是，他们或多或少失去了基本的生活能力，将来的日子会面对很多问题。

先苦后甜，是有道理的。

25 years dream! COME TRUE!!!

omg... Omg... OMG!!!

THEY WON!!!

KOO KIEN KEAT and TAN BOON HEONG!!! They are the ALL-ENGLAND MENS DOUBLES CHAMPION!!!

It's 25 years since Malaysia last won the title... Wow... Such a historical day! Such an exciting day! Imagine how I cheered...

CLAPSSS!!!!
CHEERSSS!!!
WOOHOOSSSSS!!!
YEEEAAHHHHHSSS!!!

It was a straight match, but a much tougher one compared to the Semi-finals. Very exciting! Unfortunately they lost energy faster than the opponent, the smashes weren't as beautiful as yesterday's.

The opponent was the world no. 1 pair, but were defeated by them!!! WOOHOO!!!
I am still very excited!

CONGRATULATIONS TO KOO KIEN KEAT & TAN BOON HEONG!!!
YOU MADE US PROUD!!!

different worlds

It isn't so easy studying at a private institute.

Especially IF you come from a middle-class family.

Many would think that getting out of secondary school is a heavenly thing. You won't need to be restricted by the discipline rules, and no need of wearing the ever boring school uniform anymore. Somehow, wearing school uniform isn't a bad thing afterall. Either you wear a brand new one, of a color-worn-out old uniform, no one will really care.

But if you do that at a private college or university, you yourself will feel so bad. You might be stared, or you just feel so strange walking or sitting among peole who dress like they are going for a party.

Especially for a person who spend a lot less on clothings and dressing, like me. It's quite a stressful thing to have to dress differently everyday from the limited size of wadrobe. I wonder how the girls ever have the will and time to dress up with 5-6 pieces of small clothigns jumbled up together then wear 3-4 pieces of necklaces and then make the hair pop up or tied up so that it looks most contra from among the students.

Educational-wise too. When some people know that you are on scholarship, they tend to rely on you. From leaving assignments to your charge until wanting you to 'help' them during tests. And the fact that I feel very weird whenever people start to 'praise' me or stating how 'bad' they are... '_'ll

Recently, our General Biology class has increased 2 times, because of the new special batch of students mostly from Nigeria. This made our lassroom even more packed than before. Worse is, you know... as quoted by some friends, the balcks have a habit of not changing their clothes and recycling them! So, in order to 'solve' this problem, they use a lot of perfume.

You would expect a huge 'scent' whenever you are around them. The worst thing is, when a group of blacks are together, they produce thousands of different scents...or STINK! It's VERY unbearable!!! It can actually make you dizzy!!!
*I wonder how I survived during the time at Pakistan College Beijing. Probably there weren't so many blacks then. And probably.... they change their clothes...*

And since they are from overseas, it's quite a sure thing that they come from rich families. And of rich familes, you would expect majority of them come not to study, but to spend their time, and show their faces...for a few minutes.

Yes, and that's the fact of 60% of the African students in bio class. Some will come in the beginning of the class, and leave just as the lecturer starts lecture. Some would come halfway through class, sign attendance then leave. Some just come almost the end of class, and manage to leave even before class ends! Obviously, they are there just to greet their friends, and sign attendance!

Somehow, they are short of some cells in the brain, or they just don't have a heart. Don't they think they would disturb the other students who were actually listening to the lecture? At least, they disturb ME! They just keep passing around through the seats, blocking people, knocking people, and even knocked off people's stuff on the desk! It's SOOOO IRRITATING AND FRUSTRATING!!!

Pity on them...

LeeHom craze

Wanna post some pictures of the concert, got some from Sin Chew Daily article, while I wait for Kathleen's photos.


The Grand opening. (Like David Tao) he came down from up above the stage, waving a flag like he's off to war! Haha... Later he jumped off the platform and 'fought' off the 'bad people'! Hehe...


He's good at guitars! (But somehow I prefer seeing DT playing guitar...) He is seen here with Jamie Wilson, who was one of the guitarists at DT concert too! He's Malaysian, haha!


Long-waited JJ Lin!!! Obviously I was most excited when JJ appeared. '_'ll He sang LeeHom's "Ni Bu Zai" (你不在) on the piano, while LeeHom mixed in with JJ's "Jiang Nan" (江南)! SUPERB! Later on, JJ sang his new single "Wang Ji" (忘记), one of my favourite hits, and brought out a fast number "Bo Jian Dai" (波间带). *It's strange, I go to JJ's cncert for Rynn, I go to LeeHom's concert for JJ...yikes!)


One main attraction... his MOVES!! This was when he was in really 'high' atmosphere... near the end of the concert.


End of show. LeeHom at his highest!!! Haha... His dancers helped him through all that mess!

Different Excitement!

Ended my CNY with much excitement.

On the Chap Goh Meh eve, we had a house-warming cum open-house session at our new home. Wasn't really us youngters' party, as 90% of the guests were my parents'. Anyway, Though I had as little as 3 guests, I seem more busy than my sisters! YZ was busy chatting with her friend (yes, and only that), JY was somewhere... I dunno. Then, I kept running in and out taking the stuff into the house. No big deal. But it seems an achievement to me, haha... for a person who is so timid and cowardly (oops...) at meeting people, this was the day I smiled the most! (okay, for this few months...) Looks like I really need a special push to get up and greet the guests automatically! Geesh...

So busy, yet kinda fun. Though I don't know or recognise a lot of the uncles and aunties, it's still nice to be able to meet some old (parents') friends again, like the uncles we knew in Beijing. And my house was never so presentable...haha! It's a pity my so-called friends "couldn't" (or they just don't bother to) make it.

Really thankful to Hui Ping who joined in the party, unfortunately I couldn't entertain her much. And the friends from guitar class too, "Thanks for coming!" It seemed the tables weren't enough! And ooh, Kathleen! So disappointed that you did not come, and which was very unfortunate as you missed out the handsome guy!!! ;P

My relatives were here, almost all crowding in the living room. They came from Kedah, Johor, and even Singapore!! Earlier the day, the scene was similar to the CNY 3rd day, when mom's family gather at uncle's house in Kedah. My grandma only came last minute, however, much appreciated.

And the food! What a huge variety! Too bad I only ate at around 10pm, much of the food were already in others' stomachs! The cendol was superb, direct from Klang! The popiah was a special delicacy! Yummy yummy!!

After all that, it was time to settle down. No one really knows that I had two papers to sit on Monday! Thank goodness there was a relative's maid to help out with the chores. So I get to take leave the next day! Hehe...

The Concert!
A long-waited concert! Um... for the Leehom fans. Finally, we got the tickets, quite far above the stage, but good enough.

Anyway, on the highest level of Bukit Jalil stadium, just imagine how small Leehom was. His performance was fine, but didn't seem as 'high' as that of Taiwan's or Hong Kong's (or maybe I'm wrong).

As usual, I screamed like an idiot! Kathleen must have been so surprised! Haha... (It's fun to scream, you know...) Lee Hom liked to 'play play' with the audience, kept bringing the fans to the highest with his phrases and songs and talents. And, the band palying behind him, was actually led by Kheng Long, the ever talented and wonderful Malaysian musician who was also the music director of David Tao's concert! There was Mat Nor, Jamie Wilson and David Tan as well! (Kinda miss DT's concert then...)

First time spending Chap Goh Meh or 元宵节 this way! Never really clerbated it or went throwing mandarin oranges into a Titiwangsa lake. I wonder if we can ride in the Eye of Malaysia and throw the oranges from up there! ;P That will be fun!
Anyway, it's different this year, I spent the night with (my sisters and) Kathleen! Muahahaha...

Ah.. I miss CNY now...

Happy New Year!

Such a Chinese New Year celebration I had. Falling sick on the second day of CNY was a bad time... Imagine when we were eating away the same time during the previous years, my sisters and I had only porridge and some eggs this day! Whew... thank goodness we were feeling better the next day, in time for the gathering with the relatives on mom's side... or we would have missed out A LOT!!!

Somehow the main focus isn't about angpaus this year... well I get less money this year...boo...
It seems I look forward more to gathering with my relatives...and friends (too bad, some friends don't give a damn...). Found a few of my cousins changing... looks-wise, of course. and turning more gorgeous! ;P Even my sister was a big surprise. She was the only one wearing skirt while the other two of us had trousers! Hahaha!
It seems I'm the only one not changing...hmm...no one SEES it yet..!

Joined a gathering at Boon Yung's house last Saturday, get to see the same gang, same friends whom I have not met for a few months. As usual, the so called 5566 gang weren't here... it seems there's never a gathering which they have attended...geesh.

Later we went to Dream House Restaurant at Prima Setapak. And guess what, (well...guess some of you might have known), the manager of the shop is one of the finalist of Project Superstar last year!!! And he is Max Chong! No wonder I see a familiar face when I entered the place. The restaurant is Somewhat a Halo Cafe style (right, I've never been here also), except that it was extremely deserted (2 customers!!). (Max and his girlfriend cooked for us! Haha!) There were guitars and a piano, which was a heaven to me! Since Max was a composer cum singer, he presented a few songs for us... and of course, he is good! It's a wonder he can compose Chinese songs so beautifully!

CNY ain't an easy time either. There is mid-term exam and assignments, and... this weekend will be so hectic for us!!! Coz there's a house-warming at our house, and our relatives are coming down all the way from Kedah and Johor by tonight! The house will be SO conjested!! But then, hopefully it would be an enjoyable though busy time. Call it house-warming, it is actually more like open-house for my dad. Well, at least I have such few guests, somehow those so-called 'friends' don't even bother to attend... (well, people change...)

Looks like I won't be online for some time...again... until when I need to do assignments (which I should be starting). Okay then, Chaos!

by the way, HAPPY NEW YEAR to all of you!

whew

Finally got to rest myself for a while. Believe it or not, I had my dinner at 10pm just now.
Or do you call that 'supper'? Anyway, all because CNY is approaching, we gotta do up all the unfinished business ever since we moved in. The furnitures was finally here last friday, and a hell of time we had, only getting to wash ourselves up at 12AM later... yet, there are still hell lots of things not done. My goodness...
Anyway, any fan of badminton here? Haha... kinda got attached to a Chinese player, not very handsome, but very cute! akakakakakakaaa......
This tall guy is Bao Chunlai!!
Just found out that though he holds his racket with his left hand, he writes (or signs autograph..?) using right hand! Hehe... interesting!

HaPpY ChInEsE NeW YeAr!!!

怒 , 气

最近似乎很爱说废话。
而因说了‘不该说’的一些话，竟被骂得狗血淋头。
说了话给人笑，会死吗？不会死，对不对？
我管他人爱笑不笑呀，我又没犯罪。如果你是为了面子，那随便你，反正我总是搞一些可笑的事。反正我的存在根本是个笑话。

不过，我依然存在，而且我也是个人。

目击了一个很残酷的画面。她竟然为了小事发狂的砸破那些宝贝小茶壶！本来是不小心撞倒一些而已，可是之后竟然拿其他的出气！！难以置信，一个爱节省的人会作出这种事！
我俩当然伤心透了。。。那虽然是别人送的，但却是我们最爱的摆设品呀！

逃不了的，错。。 还是在于我身上。‘是我不把另一边的东西收好，害得她碰倒那茶壶架，所以她一时在气头上才砸碎其他的。。。’对吗？
或者，要是那架子没摆在那里，就没事了？

为何我们闯祸，得自己负担，而别人干的好事，也是我的错？？难道我存在的目的是当个替死鬼吗？
如果她是火，那我会是炭。火烧炭的开始，虽然火很热，或许炭只会些温热。以大火烧炭，炭会变得很热。而更猛烈的火持续地烧炭，那炭会开始发烫，变得火红。万一爆发起来，会是个很大的伤害。

她和我的关系就类似这样。她一直在嫌弃，大骂，让我根本毫无退路。我试着关心她，帮助她，她却看不见，然而我的每一个缺点，她铭记在心理，而且不时的搬出来为难我！

我忍。
我的缺点我认了。我忍。
我不说话。我忍。
反正我说的话，她听不进。我忍。
她的缺点我早察觉到了。我忍。
偶尔我发出一些火花，却成为她另一些攻击用具。我还得忍。

忍到什么时候呀，我不晓得。知道的是，要与她正面沟通，犹如登世界最高峰，很难，很难。。。
虽说我们有念佛学，必须懂得体谅，包容别人，但这并不表示不念佛学就有借口不顾一切乱发脾气！我们哪天就算不爆发出来，也有可能得到忧郁症的！！

如今，有无数时候，我不懂得怎么面对你们。我们长大了，你们希望我们会为一些事情做决定，但却想要那决定与你们一样。表面上似乎给了咱们更多自由，事实上却更约束我们的行动。

该怎么办呢？哎。。。。。。

oh... finally!

Gosh... was kinda surprised and nervous when mom told me to take the car yesterday...
My first time taking our dear old Honda!!!

Though making mistakes sometimes, and hearing my mom nagging away, found out that it wasn't too hard taking a big car... yea, compared to the Kancil. Well of course, it was auto-geared!

It was a day off yesterday, so dragged myself up to do some exercise in the morning. And strangely, went shopping alone at Jusco in the morning! Rite, I never go shopping alone. Moreover, in the wee hours of the day. Duhh...

Somehow, I'm feeling ill today... headache, sleepy, tired. And non-stopping sneezes and nose-itching. Maybe a cold or fever is coming... hope not. Don't have any medicine with me this time. Better not collapse before returning home! Not having duty, I'm sitting at the computer lab, wasting my time. Well, don't have mood for anything except sleep...

Anyway, CNY coming, excited!!

All about New Tunes...

It was such a sleepy day for me today, catching a nap at every chance I'd get.
All because of of the concert of UKM's NTLP. Overall the concert ain't bad, quite 'okay' for a university standard. Wish there was such an event in UCSI though...
Only, It was not really what I had expected... or rather, I had too high of expectance. And, the music background were much the same, only a few songs stood out with their different tunes.

The songs presented might be quite meaningful and nice, but they almost sounded 'too normal' to us. Majority of the songs had the singing drowned out by the huge drum and guitar sounds, which made it difficult to hear the music or understand the lyrics. What a pity...

One thing, one thing which was a major negative contribution to my drowsiness last night and today is... what our country people are so good at... BEING LATE!!! Who else but the VIP... Dato' Sri Ong!!! How long was he late... ONE HOUR!!! Damn it... how tough was it to go there on a Sunday evening??! AND, he was the first to leave!! And that caused the concert to last till Midnight--12am. And I had class on the next morning... whole day... ahh great...

乱弹

最终还是不能坦然面对。


我无话可说。。。

永别了

“许伟伦去世了。”

这消息来得如此振叹，难以置信，我却知道那是真的。
虽然不是她的歌迷影迷，但对她的印象不前，所以心里总是感觉酸酸的。

世事无长，车祸更难以预料。大概十年前，张雨生也是这样走的。其实艺人也是人类，也会发生意外，也要受保护。。。

该走的，始终会走。

永别了，伟伦。

逃避

最终,还是必须选择逃避。

绕了一大圈，终究回到原点。心情一次又一次被推下深谷。为何我们的关系总是因她而遭破坏。。。
为什么每一次都显得是我们的错？

难道我的要求那么过分吗？
我安静，不代表我接受。
我闭嘴，不代表我认同。
我不要求，并不表示我很满足。

或许是因为从小就是个话不多的人，所以他们不知道我心里想的是什么，更不理会我要的是什么。但人性始终会变的。我开始发表意见时，他们却不愿意接受。

他们，也是只想逃避。
不想面对在改变的我们，在变化的世界。

不接受，不聆听，形成了最大的距离。沟通出现问题。感情也就出现裂痕。

其实我是很爱他们的，他们不晓得。也许，我爱得不够，我付出的不多。。。

也许，我该像她一样，离开。
离开一阵子，我会更爱大家，会更珍惜他们。

只是，我不知道，他们是否也会这样。。。 。。。

refresh

Got tired of my blog's template. Wasn't quite my favorite color anyway.

Finally resolved to this one. Seems to me a winter-like place. Like the snowing winter in Beijing.




These were taken from the windows of our apartment.

The happiest of winter was to wake up in the morning welcomed by the moderately heavy snow. Then the whole day would be spent outdoors.

Those were the days...

木头

最近不知怎么啦。感觉很纳闷，很无奈。
最近变得很讨厌自己，甚至开始恨这个世界。
心里有种气，闷着，发泄不了。。。

佛堂上课时，老师要我们进行交友活动，我很不幸的，被配选了一个年级比较小的男生。而且，它是个‘木头’，更是个‘香蕉人’。那更没话说了。害得老师要来敲一敲我们。哎，感觉像再看以前的我，真受不了！

这年头有点衰。好像回到从前的我了。在大学交朋友真难，更何况我念的科系，更是雪上加霜。多希望我不会是系上唯一的女生，不知以后的日子该怎么熬呀。。。

是不是自己闷骚了，竟然在学校发了点脾气。不过那个人是该‘骂’的，谁叫他那么重色！还有那些人，撞墙吧！！

New Year

This is the first post of the year.

It's weird. There seems to be no sense of new year in myself. Still tagging along with the past. Hmm...

There wasn't much celebration of the New Year for me. Had hoped to join the fun at Sungei Wang, where Rynn was attending a Countdown Party, but... ah, you've guessed it.

So all I did was sticking to the TV trying to catch every bit of Rynn, having some red wine and Tobelrone to celebrate. Unfortunately, the MCs were too talkative and too noisy that Rynn wasn't interviewed before the live telecast ended.

So much feeling of down these days. I wonder why. Might be because of my studies, or my family, or my friends. Or Rynn. So frustrating, thinking of the beloved photos taken with him just lost like that. Well, my sister is lucky, she got had a 'new' second-hand phone (while I'm still wondering when I'll get mine). But the sweet memories would only be in my mind, might even fade away, and I have lost the photos forever...

What will become of me this year? A source says that those of Aries will be quite lucky. I wonder, I doubt, I hope. It will definitely be a tough year.

New year resolution? To work harder in my studies.
It's the same for every year. Plus, I hope to wash away my bad habits.
Easier said than done.

zero six to zero seven

It's strange. How fast the year has passed by so quickly.

However, a year which seems a big twist in my life.

This year had been the most relaxing year ever since I returned from Beijing. Though not having classes or school for the first 4 months, tension was raised by the few applications and interviews for my tertier education. It was a hectic time trying to decide the courses as well as meeting the deadlines and appointments.

Having achieved something, I thought I would be following my sister's footstep. Like what most of my friends did. Ending secondary school, I have stepped into the life of a university student, though I have never imagined myself joining a private institute. For the first time, I have travelled alone in public transport to somewhere almost 50 kilometers away.


Because of this, I had more time to do other things, as compared to my friends (though I know it would be different when I enter first year of degree course). Had much more time, to miss the days in Beijing.
I took some guitar classes, which, I had tried to pick up by myself two years back. Finally, I found some noise turning into sound. Hah!

Then, at the end of the year, we get to move into our new house, thought it ain't fully furnished yet. It's fun and comfortable living in a much bigger place, however, the faulties found here and there really do drive us crazy! As you know, I've complained so much about the contractor...

What's most interesting about this year was, the number of showcases and concerts I have attended! Yup, it was so cool and felt so great getting to see the artists. There was Rynn Lim's mini concert, which I won VIP tickets, as well as for Jin Sha's mini concert, which came along with a bonus meet-the-artists session! The first time I get so up-close with artists! (Gotta say, Rynn and Jin Sha were very very friendly people!) You can't imagine how I tried every way to get close to them... hehe... There was JJ's concert, and well, our main aim was the see the guest artist... Rynn Lim. But I DID enjoy JJ's show!

Ooh, and the bombastic David Tao was back! Delaying his concert for almost half a year, I finally get to watch his performance live! As a friend said, he is really cool for an 'old man'.

Not to forget, Michael Wong and Stefanie Sun's concerts were also great times. Though never quite a fan, it was fun to cheer and scream along with the crowd. I never get to do that at home.

Having less exposed to textbooks, I've learned quite some 'facts' about life. One thing is friendship. This is a simple, yet complicated thing. Through the year, I have found some nice new friends. Though, out of these friends, some are easy to mix with, while with some others, it felt strange even to have a little chat.

Friendship lasts forever. Or does it? I am maintaining friendship with some old friends. Though we seldom meet, we do chat through messenger or phone. However, I feel that some others don't even bother to answer an SMS, though they would say that they were afraid of losing the friendship bond during the past days.

The conclusion, Friendship is fragile.

Friends may not always be friends. Friendship does not last forever. Unless you maintain it.

Another lesson is, achievement doesn't fall from the sky. So, you should work for it, try at every opportunity. You have to find it, and try to get it. From the little things, like trying my chance to meet Rynn. Yes, it was really awkward, most people think so, so they don't do it, and lost their chance. In other cases, like pending for scholarship fund, if you don't apply, you will never get it. If you had applied but did not succeed, at least you will not feel that bad, because you have tried.

Appreciation is so important for a happy life. Realise and appreciate what you have instead of craving and grieving for what you don't have. Positive thinking is as important. Life is full of unsatisfactoriness and suffering. Everything happening around us may have positive and negative results. People tend to grief over the negative part. Try looking at the positive side, you'll find the world isn't too bad afterall. Still, everything that happened is the ripening of karma, I accept the fact.

Don't really know what to expect for this brand new year. One thing for sure, it's gonna be a much tougher year. Stepping into a world which sounds very alien to me. Hopefully I can adjust to it easily and quickly.

Hopefully the number of tragedies will decrease in our country as well as in the world. Wish so much that our family will stay together.

Wish all of you well and happy. Sadhu, sadhu, sadhu!

alien's back

Phew. Finally finished the last paper. The most exhausting one.

And finally I'm 'officially' back in this world. It's hard to live without the net, but I survived anyway.

December. One year since I finished SPM. Also a very exhausting thing.

Same time last year, we were enjoying at Payar Island. How I miss the Penang trip and the gang...


miss the adventures...


miss the siao-siao moment...


miss the food...


miss the shark...


What's hot these days is the Doha Asian Games 2006. Apparently, my favorite badminton players were kicked out in the quarter-and semi-final rounds. Not much to expect of our country's team, getting a bronze was probably good enough...

Anyway, going to Penang tomorrow, and back to Alor Star. Had been very eager about this trip, but just found out that there's disappointment behind it. Well, Rynn Lim and JJ Lin are gonna have a promotion session in KL next Friday. And I'm gonna miss it. Arghhhh... fancy missing out both the concert and the session!! I'm so sad...

Will miss Rynn a lot... JJ too...

D for David Tao

It was definitely the concert of the year!!

David Tao was finally back in Malaysia for his last stop of "Love Can World Tour" concert. After half a year of waiting, the fans must have got so much crazier!

October 28, 2006. A memorable day of my life.

The concert started at 8.30pm. There was a video of DT piloting a copter which crashed. And out came DT from the sky!! He descended in a white glittering suit, like an angel, haha. Below him, were the musicians in white, too.

The concert kicked off with his hit, [Zhao Zi Ji] (Rain). He got the crowd really groovy with his hot number [Jin Tian Mei Hui Jia] (Shanghaied).

It was so much fun when he requested the audience to stand up and groove with his music. well, it felt better standing, you know. It's much more enjoyable to sway to the beat!

Surely, every number he sang was accompanied by loud cheers andhandclaps and whistles. Giving his best in delivering more than 25 songs, his power shone throughout the night.

The Uniqueness
If you think DT is just a singer who is quite aged (compared to other popular artists) and sing mostly ballads, you're wrong. He is part of that, but not all that.

In fact, he is much more energetic than so many other artists who had held concerts. Although not dancing, he could really rock the 12000-audience to their highest (including me, of course)!!

The concert was not just another concert. It was a huge range of music, with DT switching from lounge singer mode to hip hop artiste, rock star, rapper and even dabbled in some Chinese opera at one point. I especially enjoyed the rock segment, which he presented the songs [Gui] (Ghost) and [Hei Se Liu Ding] (Black Tangerine) and followed by [Sun Zi Bin Fa] (Sun Tzu's Art of War). It was completed with the drums and guitars and everything to the bright lights, which gave the atmosphere of a truly ROCK concert!!!

His performance of [Su San Shuo] (Susan Says) was begun with a few line of Chinese Opera style, treating the fans with his talent (probably?) inherited from his mother. Hehe... truly interesting!

The Stage
The stage was pretty eye-catching as we entered the stadium. It was in a rain forest theme, with plants ang groves and bushes, and there was even a wrecked helicopter in within all the... mess.

The Band
COncerts with live bands are truly amazing! The band members were all in white, which made them look angels in within the forest. Haha... They were very fantastic throughout the concert. DT had a lot of interaction with the band, the background vocalists as well as the Mosaic (erm...rite?), comprising the violin family.

The music director was Mr Goh Kheng Long. I found him a very talented musician. On stage, he played the keyboard and piano (very touching music~!!), and was even the conductor for the little orchestra.

The band was comprised of many Malaysians as well! And this included Mr Goh!! while some others were from Singapore, Thailand, etc. Looks like DT quite recognise Malaysian musicians. *If only I had a chance...*

For background vocals, there were girls this time, who were multi-talented as well. One of them, Ke Wei, dueted the song [Jin Tian Ni Yao Jia Gei Wo] with DT. Besides, she too played the "Er Hu" in a few songs, soemtimes accompanied by the traditional flute.

There was a medley session, kinda unplugged, where David Tan, guitarist and vocalist, joined in singing some parts. He has a good voice.

During a break, once, Mohd Nor (on percussion) gave him a bottle of water, but spoke in Malay. DT doesn't understand, as he said, but I guess he arranged for it! hah!

The duet
As promised, DT invited a fan on stage for a duet. He 'finally' chose a gurl, Celine, from the VVIP section. Later did I know that she was a 'banana'. No wonder she kept speaking ang mo to DT. She managed to keep the audience 'high' (of jealousy??) One thing was, she couldn't keep her hands off DT!! Right from the moment she stepped on stage! (Wonder what Joanne will say...? Oops...)
The song sung was [Tian Tian], a beautiful song.

Love Can vs Soul Power
I would say, the Soul Power concert was a better one compared to this. All because the SP concert was focused on music. Whereas, this one was a 'typical' concert, not only focused on music, but also other 'minor' stuff like his suits, the stage, blablabla... It's a pity I didn't attended the SP's, but at least got to watch the VCD of the one held in Hong Kong.
Well of course, this was far more better than other concerts this time around. Not regrets of a the rushing and arranging. ;) Realy hoping for a next time...

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I know this is late. Anyway, serves well for my reference, ;D

Home sweet home...?

Finally, we get to move into our new house.

Somehow, our family has been moving about every five years. Year 1996, 2000, and now 2006.

Not too new a house though, but extended and renovated. It should feel good to stay in a larger place. Though it's a bit further away from the LRT station, guess it's well worth it.

Somehow I feel quite alien about this whole thing. Or rather, there seems not much atmosphere of it. And somehow, it felt more at home when I returned to the old house.

However, things never come perfect. Let's not talk about the furniture which aren't bought yet. To our dismay, many of the equipments in the house are faulty. The workers seem to have just made a mess out of everything.

Looks like there won't be much entertainment for us these few days. As long as the antenna and telephone line are not fixed. But the good news is, we are gonna have Astro! Not too keen though, compared to last time, since there are quite a lot of TV programmes on national tv. Hopefully, the broadband line will be fixedsoon, and that we get a new PC! I'm damn tired of the old one...
And hopefully, dad we bring us back to the old house to watch [The Beginning] every nite!! Haha...

The first day of moving in, my 3 aunties, all the way from Kedah, were here to visit! Looks like the some of them are more excited about the housewarming! Anyway, that won't come soon, most probably next year.

Anyway, hope to return to normal days of life.

Weird

Its been raining everyday past few weeks.

Why? Cuz the rain god, Rynn Lim is back in Malaysia! (yeah rite...)

The sad thing is, I can't go to his events.
Ahh.. my heart is weeping.

All because the family is busy with the new house. So much trouble. Renovating, cleaning, packing. Not only that, arguements, waitings, disappointments, mistakes (or merely ignorance), and... stupidity?! It all comes in a package.

But then, I'm quite eager to move into my new room which has a great view of the condominium blocks nearby. Much more of scenery and greenery as compared to the current one. Much bigger too. ;)

Rynn, I miss you so much!!!

The moral studies presentation went on this week. Tuesday's was quite 'interesting', or not, but still is unique comapred to others. The group of India girls presented a sketch to accompany their pslide presentation. The strange thing is, when the other groups are supposed to have only 2 representatives to present, this group had 4 of them speaking.
It ain't fair to us.
But although speaking loudly and much more professionally, they were seem to just reading the slides without digesting the facts. Without being able to answer the questions directed to them, they kept giving the reason that their slides went off.

That's why, don't talk too much. You've gotta think as well.

As for today's presentation, They too had three presenters. Their problem is, they seem not to had good relations among themselves.
The main speaker seem not satisfied with his members. How would someone say the class and the lecturer that their members did not put in much effort?? This would show that he thinks superior of himself. And the consequence might be that they get lower marks. Group work should be done in a group. If you've chosen the wrong members, then it's your problem.

What is life? It's quite confusing. Taking transport 3 hours per day? Studying day and night? Chasing after your favourite idol? Eat and sleep all day?

Why do we have to live? To wait for the death?
Why does rebirth take place? And that we have to strive hard to reach our goals, get enlightenment?
What if I'm reborn as an animal, a bird, a cow, a dog, a pig, whatever, or ghost, or deva? What is I have to suffer all over again?
Why should life be suffering?
Why were we in this universe in the first place?

Seems so weird. Quite tiring.
Life is so much suffering. Unsatisfactoriness.
That's why I'm here. taking 3 hours of tranport time to and fro the university. That's why I'd rather not move out to somewhere near there.
That's why I'm craving to see Rynn.
That's why we want to climb, not fall.
That's why we too have to bear with the society.

It's strange. I come all the way to UCSI from Setapak, while another friend who was an ex-student here go all the way from Bukit Jalil to TARC.
The world is upside down...

Attachment brings suffering. Crave is the cause of suffering.
By discarding crave and attachment, we live happier spiritually.
But this is easier said than done.

I'm still a long way from enlightenment.
Anyway, I'm striving for it.
There is a reason for this.

工体北

我的一位中四同学，纬娴，的父亲(也是我老爸的同事) ，早前调职到北京去了。

要说羡慕，也没什么好羡慕的。

只是，我是多么想念北京呀~！想念那儿的天气，那儿的环境，那儿的美食，那儿的感觉。。。

听过林宇中的[工体北]吧？

一过了工体北 摇头又晃脑
浪漫的北京夜 一条酒吧街

纬娴说，她好像有经过工体北，但不确定是在哪个区。我的记忆衰退了，对工体北印象不深。工人体育馆是有去过，但没想过工人体育馆北路(印象中有个菜市场)是个酒吧街！

If I’m not wrong, 可能是在“蓝桥分店” 附近吧。曾经见过那里的一条街，在晚上时是闪闪发光的，很想去看看，没机会。

另一条酒吧街是在三里屯。忘了哪条路。白天时是个街边市场，有很多小档口，是个杀价的好地方！黑夜的时候，就转变成街边街了！超级热闹的！由于三里屯位于使馆区那一带，所以那里总是有很多老外，由其在晚上的时候！
别想太多，我少到那儿的！

有看过电影[如果爱] 吗？
这部影片有很多戏是在北京取景的。而且是农历新年期间哦！看见那个冰冻的河、道路、建筑物、胡同、郊外的小房子，还有呼气时呼出的“烟” 。。。唉，好怀念北京的冬天啊~！！

得知我们的前大使的儿子目前在北京定居，好佩服，好羡慕。不知我是否也有这种机会呢？

一过了工体北 全身轻飘飘
喧闹闹的音乐 忘了我是谁
发现自己今夜哪儿都去不了
在工体北晃就好

Raya

This year's Raya is less exciting than before. Only one open house to go, that means only to enjoy the delicacies once. Boo.

Recalling, time passes so fast, the last Raya seems just a few months back. Still remember it was around SPM period.

SPM 2006 is just round the corner, but I feel it ain't long since I took the exam last year.

This is a funny year.

Anyway, I've been in university already for half a year, and I'm finishing my 2nd semester's duty. 58 hours, finally over. hopefully I can get back my duty at Engineering Lab next sem.

The family will be so busy in next few weeks. Coz we are moving!! Though our house renovation is not completed yet (thanks to the d*** contractor), I've been keen on moving into my room, which I'll share with my younger sis. The house will be bigger!!

That makes us not to arrange any recreational activity in those weeks. Booooooo... But of all that, I will not give up watching TV. At least, I MUST watch [The Beginning]!!!

There's still the performance to come up. Last weeks of practice this Saturday. Just hope I won't get silly on THE day.

Rynn Lim is returning to the country, but won't be able to see him live. So sad... But hopefully my mom won't drag me away from the TV.

And the worst thing is, my tummy has been upset continuously for past few weeks. Sweat. That's why I don't really like to eat outside food.

So much is happening. Especially this year. At this time of the year.

Ahhh... enjoy life. Maybe, maybe not. A game of ball will be enjoying. ;)

[Sing-Along] 空秋千

嘿！推荐好歌给你们哦！

这是[空秋千]，电视剧[原点]的主题曲,由林宇中做词做曲及演唱。
歌词很有意思，曲子更为佳！
要是想听，每逢星期一至五晚上9.30，守候NTV7播出的[原点]喔！！

空秋千
荡秋千 来回终究要停在原点
望太远 眼前幸福却忽略
晃半圈 圆不了爱恋
高一遍 低一遍 风就吹散了永远

好想为你荡秋千 看着夕阳扮鬼脸
若月光再美一点 我们会否把手牵
好想被你碎碎念 当数流星的配乐
你却说你等不到天亮
空秋千 陪真夜

秋千和我失眠 在你影子身边
这公园太想念 你无邪的笑脸

好想为你荡秋千 看着夕阳扮鬼脸
若月光再美一点 我们会否把手牵
好想被你碎碎念 当数流星的配乐
你却说你等不到天亮
空秋千 陪真夜

*荡秋千 望太远 晃半圈
高一遍 低一遍 圆不了爱恋
风就吹散了永远 来回终究停在原点

DT in the House!!!

It's been 2 weeks, and I'm finally here to update it.

On October 6 2006, Friday, David Tao's KL showcase was held at Picollo Gallery at Bukit Bintang. In fact, it was in the middle of a busy road!! Wow~~! However, the stage, of course, was smaller than that of last year's which was at Sunway Lagoon.

Anyway, scheduled at 9pm, the crowd was not so big even by eight. However by nine, the place was packed. It was obvious that the crowd was smaller compared to last time. Might be because he s having other autograph sessions too at Malacca and Ipoh.

The man who came in a comfortable pink shirt sang only 2 songs, but which was quite good compared to some one other place, where he sang only one song. He delivered the hit single of the new album, [Tai Mei Li] (Beautiful), and in conjunction with the Mid-autumn festival, he sang the 'legendary' [Yue Liang Dai Biao Shei de Xin] (The Moon represents Who's Heart!). He was given a lantern which was in chicken shape!! Hehe...so cute!

Then... the autograph session!! Fortunately, a friend requested that I help her get a CD autographed, so... I got to go on stage!! Yahoo!! That was my first time seeing DT up close! And as usual, he was such a friendly guy, spoke to every fan and looked them in their eyes whole-heartedly. Yes, I admit that I was 'electrically shocked' by him!! Muahahahahahaha~~!! I was lost of words when he talked to me! Hehee... was kinda blur after that...

And even more exciting, was when we used the same concert ticket to exchange for so many postcards!! Haha... (you may call that cheating? Who cares...) This time, I prepared myself and spoke to him. Fish was in front of me, and she spoke a lot to him! And he was quite willing to respond, but the crew 'chased' her away...hehe...

And my turn, his look on the face seem to tell that he remembered me...or it was my own imagination!

Anyway, I threw out a sentence, "It's great to see you here!"
He replied, "Thank you very much!" *drool*
Then, he said, "Zhong Qiu Jie quai Le!" (Happy Mid-Autumn Festival!"
And I replied, "zhongqiujiequaile.." Haha... Was 'suprised' by that...haha...

Minutes later, he left the place. We saw him off in his company car. It was so cool, that the road was temporary blocked to give him way! WoOOosh... And he saw crazy people behind rails waving madly at him...

I didn't take any photos, but got some from a friend, Soursand!! Lots of thanks to her!!


The Stage!! Looks big huh? But it was quite small. Imagine two lanes of the road...


Give it up for David Tao!! That's him with Sam, the DJ as emcee of the showcase.


A chit-chat with DT. He spoke very interestingly.


Trying to fly??!!


Feel the charm of DT...!


It was hot!!


Singing...!




Thanks to Soursand for the photos!

Poisoned

Aarrrghh!! I was poisoned! Hmm... food poisoned, I believe. Might be the "donut hotdog" I had for lunch yesterday. This little thing upset my stomach and body so much.

My hectic day was started with that. My situation changed so dramatically that the "pau" that I like was of no appetite to me. In fact, my chest was feeling so bad that I felt like vomiting.

Had no choice but to apply some ointment and take a rest. That meant being late for my appointment. Later, my doctor cousin (who's come to stay for some while) told me to take some 100 Plus, which contained sodium and potassium which I was most probably lack of. Thankfully, I did recover a little after that.

I was late for 2 hours. Supposed to gather at university to do the Moral Studies project. Fortunately my parents sent me there, or I would have been so tired upon reaching the venue.

Anyway, the worse thing is that I have 2 mid-term exams on the day of project presentation. So unlucky, thinking that other people will only have to worry about it a month later! Haiz... It's continuation of the crazy weeks. College life is crazy, when you are free, you can be shaking ur legs. When you get busy, you don't even have to the time to shake ur head!

Later, because of the heavy rain and traffic jam, I was late for my guitar class. But still, it's better than not going.

Things come so fast and so suddenly these 2 weeks. And suddenly Yee Chung is bak again in Malaysia! And he's now the "Ai Xin Da Shi" (Loving Ambassador?)! Such a pleasant surprise... the news showed a compassionate side of him, going around greeting the patients... probably at the dialysis.

tomorrow's gonna be even more packed. Hopefully my stomch gets better, as it's starting to get painful again right now. Though I guess taht I'll be dragging my weak body for a week.