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So much more unknown, so much more unsaid.

Understanding that it does not always work out the way you want even though you have put the best of effort in it.
But accepting it is another huge issue.

And having worked hard to achieve what I aimed to, is this what I have intended for? Is it what I’m expected for?
Why do I keep seeing myself getting tensed over the smallest issue?
Why can’t I be normal and get things easy?
Why can’t I give myself a break and make the monkey brain rest for some time?
Why can’t I put a full stop to the past and start from the beginning again?
Or can I ever?

I wanna go on, continue life with a new self.
But the past keeps resisting me.

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