Wednesday, December 23, 2009

不想面对的还是到来了。


怎么办?不想回到原点。。



Damn... why am I feeling so pathetic??

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

冬至快乐!

冬至快乐!
今年的冬至,是我第二次不在家,没和家人过吧。。。
没得吃汤圆咯。。。 :(
想起去年的时候,爸妈不在家,咱们姐妹仨戳汤圆啊。。。哈哈,真可笑 :P

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Sunday, December 06, 2009

Cape Rachado Concurred!

Dec 5, Port Dickson – Cape Rachado was concurred by an ‘alien’ who was brought in by humans at around 5.30pm.

The incident happened in a cloudy early evening, when there were moderate amount of tourists for a weekend. The ‘alien’, on the other hand, did not offer suspicious looks.

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Sources state that the visit has been planned a few weeks ago, that the ‘alien’ has been collaborating with the humans, who apparently are colleagues in a refinery. It was planned to catch the sunset, which was failed, though the sun appeared reaching late evening.

Suspicion surrounds as there seem to be some kind of exploration done on the beach, which was one of the clearest spots among the tourist spots in Port Dickson. The group did not (get to) register at the guard house. There is a possibility of more trips to the place.

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Wednesday, December 02, 2009

训练期,几乎和咱们宝贝们断绝关系。。。是我不好,미안해~

我们家jaechunsu好勇敢啊!预料之外的事,辛苦你们啦。

要撑着,要加油!HWAITING!!

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rush rush rush

Grandma getting better, thankfully.
And so managed to SC’s wedding after all. Congrats SC!! So great to see you happily married :)
And waiting for more nephews and nieces :P

The rush back was interrupted by a huuuuuuge traffic jam even up at Taiping! Missed the train, missed the sleep, missed a half day at work. A bad experience, a true learning.

A farewell dinner for Ervin at Coconut Groove, apparently that’s the place we went for mango ice but ended up with lychee ice.
Price very high, but food so-so, and service quite bad.
Like the environment though, by the sea side.
And apparently that might be my farewell threat too… wat’a…

I feel heavy-hearted to leave...

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Hope

Emotional stress making the days hard for me. Can’t say it’s unexpected, yet it’s more serious than imagined.
How the situation is, and how I’m handling it.
Don’t want to think about it, I just get too pessimistic. Yet I keep worrying about it.
Still talking and smiling with people around, yet when I’m on my own, I feel like breaking down.
And I did. How awful.



Hoping for the best...
You must get better, grandma.
Gambatte!!

Sunday, November 22, 2009

2012

Much anticipated movie, yet much more disappointed.

A show to cater to the curious, to get the image of the imagination or beliefs in parts of the human society on the cinema screen?
Or probably it showed “What would happen?” when my expectation was “What ELSE would happen??”
Other than that, kinda too graphical, unrealistic compared to the previous few disastrous movies, familiar scenes,...

Oops, no offence pls!
Yes, I’m too picky I supposed...


Still hopes for the best when the year comes.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Kemaman & Netball

End of October. Having 3 - 4 trips and invitations on the same weekend, I sincerely apologize for not being able to make it for all the others, as I had promised to join in the trip to Kemaman.

And the purpose of the trip, for friendly games of netball, volleyball and soccer with Huntsman Tioxide, the ex-company of the SRC MD.
Since I only first played netball a few weeks ago, never have I expected to be involved with a game in such a short time, and especially not with an ankle like this...

No doubt, the saying of the strong netball team (and thus my fear of letting them down). The opponent team was very strong as well, well built skills and strength, I had a phobia of being knocked over by them! And indeed, I fell down again, this time just minor scratches, thankfully. An exciting game it was, a close one, but we won! =)

The hospitality given was great, we were served 'sata', a local delicacy. It was a great pity that we did not go for the famous stuffed crab, but we were treated well to a Thai cuisine ;)

pak kalong restaurant

Resided in a hotel at Kuantan. The hotel room was rather spacious and comfortable, and the breakfast provided, rather good :)

MS Garden,

I guess the only cons of the trip was that the distance was much longer, spending almost half a day for each trip. And the few obstacles of bus brakes problem and landslide detour, the marathon movie watching time (3 movies continuously!) covered it. :P

East Malaysia sealine

Coconuts~
I bet junsu would love these~!!

And of course, the great sportsmanship, teamwork and friendship :D

SRC Netball Team

Monday, November 09, 2009

tear me down

Sien sien sien... AAAaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAA~!!!

Where is the solution??! Or is there EVEN a solution??!!!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

By the seaside

For 7 weeks now...

That I have been in Port Dickson, on my own.
That I have been living a life in a small town.
That I have been traveling to and fro this place and KL almost every week.
That I have been under the sun cycling and within the chemical smell breathing.
That I am on FB only during the weekends...
That I am sleeping on average 7 hours a day!

Guess I'm getting used to this lifestyle, although having no internet access can be pretty boring initially and sometimes now.
But it's also the balanced lifestyle that I have now that's letting me enjoy my training. Not only the amount of sleep, also the sports (which is the only thing we can do in PD after work!), starting with badminton, then netball, and now volleyball~!!
Though I play pretty badly still... at least I'm moving my arms and legs around :P

And the cons...
Missing out events going on at my own place.
Missing family and the people...
Missing my previous crazy self.

But for a good working environment and supervisor, I guess the sacrifice is worth it after all.
Not to say we are still strangers to the environment soemtimes, and vice versa, but people still 'take care' of us...
Anyhow we are those in Orange hats.
:P

sunset @ PD seaside

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

What luck

Not again...

A game of netball that I’m pretty terrible in, a slip and a red stream of liquid flowing down from my knee.
A next game of volleyball that I’m still not familiar with, and ball flying into my face.
The first thing I was concerned with was my specs. How materialistic…

Seriously have a lot of trouble controlling my limbs. Seriously trying to overcome it.
Yet rather like I’m making a fool of myself…

Monday, October 05, 2009

It was Mid-autumn... and LCW!!

What’s pleasant about this mid-autumn festival, is we had seafood at Klang ^^
What’s even more exciting about it, is we had the dinner with Dato’ Lee Chong Wei!!

Alright, he was only sitting at the table next to ours. A nice view of him and his siblings’ family from my seat. And a good peek of the lady next to him… haha, the reason for the latest news of his love life, perhaps? *Judging from her fairness, she might be a mainland Chinese :P *

It’s a pity we did not get to go fanatic, and ask for a photo with him. I feel I’m unexpectedly calm when seeing him, unlike the sisters…wakakaka…

Not a good sign for my paparazzi business though…

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Goodbye

Another goodbye, a tearful one.

Bye bye to the beloved camera… whether you are so valuable to be stolen or that you miss me too much that you have gone missing while looking for me at PD…

Goodbye to the companions as well. There goes the two memory cards with memories of the cousin’s wedding and the enjoyable videos and pics of the cute cute You You which I haven’t even get to enjoy or show off…

Goodbye to the two battery partners that have saved my camera from being unused in times of need…

Goodbye to the joy and memories that you all have given me…


When will the next set come, heaven knows…


I will miss you, Ixus Canon.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Bye Bye

A wild idea for a sudden rush back to kay-elle to attend the Awards Day.

That would be fine if I had a car or I had known of the majority attending the event EARLIER.



Disappointment, again.


Yet how impossible for the condition I am in now. And the fact that my boss is so busy now, and I haven't been productive enough lately. I guess I shouldn’t leave even if I could.
Gotta keep my sane.


Giving it up all over again. Hates it.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Live Life

It was just the day before when I had a discussion (or rather a questioning...) with a senior who is a pro in electricity, talking mainly about safety of electricity, the basic of all which the details you would never think you never knew of. What a lot of enlightenment...haha~

And then the next day, there was a live presentation of it! A power failure occurred at the T Music Festival concert, which could have been caused by short circuit or overloading to the power system, and BAMM! The stadium went in almost complete darkness. We could actually see flames and smoke emerging from one end of the stage! And damn... it reminded me of Final Destination...hahaha...

Such an unfortunate incident, but which reflected the nonprofessional-ism of the organizer. Firstly, the size and model of the stage was quite incompatible for the price of the tickets paid. Now the occurrence of this incident showed they are cutting down cost for electrical equipment.
And taking people's safety for granted. Especially the fact that there were so many people in and around the shed where the fire was. We were lucky it was just a small one… what if something enormously exploded?? Omg...

Life is just unpredictable. Having gone through a rather dull period of time for the past few months, I guess I had better make use of the months I have now for internship.
While trying to open up for new options, it’s rather amazing how certain people pass by and enlighten the mind, to give advice, to give courage.
From the smallest yet heartiest smile, to the most complicated phrases. Sometimes it isn’t clear what you are expected of, but it is might just be enough to let you know that you are not alone.
Sleeping almost as enough as possible, picking up badminton again (trying to…), a must to revive my terrible singing and guitar-ing skills.
And what else but to live as a normal youngster. Work hard for as well as enjoy life.

The fate that you have, is in the hands of your Karma.
The future that you intent, is in the hands of you past and yourself, now and then, which would generate more Karma.

Friday, September 11, 2009

down

So much more unknown, so much more unsaid.

Understanding that it does not always work out the way you want even though you have put the best of effort in it.
But accepting it is another huge issue.

And having worked hard to achieve what I aimed to, is this what I have intended for? Is it what I’m expected for?
Why do I keep seeing myself getting tensed over the smallest issue?
Why can’t I be normal and get things easy?
Why can’t I give myself a break and make the monkey brain rest for some time?
Why can’t I put a full stop to the past and start from the beginning again?
Or can I ever?

I wanna go on, continue life with a new self.
But the past keeps resisting me.

Help...

Sunday, September 06, 2009

对不起

知道自己的种种问题,造成了很多问题。

终于鼓起勇气,把话说出来,虽然似乎是很不适当的场合。
感谢大家给我的意见,我一直以来需要的东西。
我会试着改过。

我为我自己,真诚的道歉。
Sorry, 미안 합니다.

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Internship

It´s supposed to be the first day of my internship, and yet I am sitting here surfing the net. Uh well... an error in some arrangement and thus the off/day for the three new interns! Haha...

Everything else is fine except the fact that there´s no internet excess at the lodging place. But somehow Astro is well accompanying me... I guess? Shall I get used to the couch/potato lifestyle??

A change of pace in life... Expecting myself to be enriched mentally... as well as physically. Talking about putting on weight... =.=||

Anyway... all the best to every Co-opers and short-semers~ ^^

Monday, August 10, 2009

one word

Disappointed.







You will never understand...

Sunday, August 09, 2009

puppy craze

Have been coming across puppies and cute doggies recently...
changmin's doggie, mandoongi
Changmin's mini doggie, Mandoongi!!
How it could look so adorable... so cute that it seems so fake :P

shaki & puppies
And the dear Xiah-ki, Junsu's dog, having puppies now!!
The puppies are soooo fluffy!! Looking exactly like Xiah-ki (as well as Junsu~)

Walked pass a pet shop and noticed the lil puppies... as cute.
And how I used to stand for half an hour and watch the dogs play...

At the mechanic's today, a puppy, though dirty and maybe not-so-healthy, looks adorable and seriously need more fun and stuff when it was playing with only some newspaper... Poor little thing~

A puppy, something I have longed for, yet it's still an objection by mom & dad.
So much so that I will love it, it's another source of attachment, and the suffering created when the day comes to part from it...

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Super Band!

迷迷糊糊去看了一场演唱会,纵贯线。
这四代同堂的组合挺有趣的,各有风格。
才发现阿岳很孝顺,每一首歌都有爸爸妈妈;
李宗盛的歌都很熟悉 (吉他也都很漂亮 ^^ );
罗大佑的风格很特别,像个神。。。;
而我还是很喜欢周华健的歌。。。嘻嘻~
演出是不错,可惜音响很差,灯光太刺眼。。。

看了演出,又唤起了那想搞band的梦想。
很可笑吧?还有那些目标。。。多么遥远的梦想啊~
只怪自己不中用,几年了还是原地踏步。。。
盼望未来那四个月,多多努力,希望有些进展。

最近是对acapella上瘾了。听一首歌可以听好几回不会腻。(虽然自己唱着难听啦~)
还和朋友玩的很开心 :P (感谢你邀我哦~ XD )
继续努力哦~ AZA! Hwaiting~!!

Friday, July 24, 2009

What you are

Crying over spilt milk.

You are so insane.

Bless you.
Damn...

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Option

It's the time of the life again, just like one last year.
Considering the fact that I do not need to go through as much trouble to get an internship job, while others might be on the verge of not getting one... it's somehow another different situation at my position.
Unsatisfactory of humans. Yet the fear of losing a good opportunity now or then... all over me. The fear of regret.
The toughest of all is to make the choice. And not regret over it.
The choice that would probably bring me back to my original plan.
Hope this is right. I'm very anxious, I'm afraid...
All messed up.

Yet I don't really have to be, It's just that I'm afraid to take the step forward.
And now, I must.
Any way has it's own conclusions... I persuade myself not to think too much.

And apologies to those whom I had hoped to assist... I'm very sorry, if my decision later is not in favor of you...

Monday, July 13, 2009

Extreme

Grandma has been in town for one and a half weeks now. A good cause, not for a good reason though. Had some problems with the heart, and had just went through an operation. But the fact that the surgery took place before I realised it was already over! Hah.. I'm really lagging in knowing the modern medical world.
And therefore we've been having visitors.. relatives coming from north and south. And how dreadful it is having not able to spend time with them, thanks to the loads of work.
Had expected to meet this situation, especially now with 3 projects at hand and the endless assignments and studyings... the fact that I had cut out the TV time completely and sacrificing my sleep.
Hah... It feels terrible. To struggle to keep my eyes open and my brain awake and watch out on my steps to make sure I don't fall down anytime...

It's worse off when people expect 200% from you and yet you are witnessing them contributing only about 20%.
Much much worse when people think it's the other way round.

At this moment, I'd say, life sucks.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Non-Stop

当自己要崩溃了。
真的很想大喊大骂大哭。。。只为了发泄。
几度红了眼眶,只能告诉自己,要撑着,坚持多一点,反正都已经到了这个地步了,没得回头了。
说坚持,我真的能吗?很害怕哪一天真的倒下了,会怎么样呢?
要说好好安排时间,并不是做不到,只是时间真的不够用。报效了娱乐的时间,睡眠时间也更加短了。这几个星期,都是精神紧绷,几乎没有一天是能够真正放松心情,好好休息的。
这一切,是他们所看不到的。口口声声说,了解我的情况,可是,是否有曾经体谅过我的处境?非得要这样逼我吗?
对于那些光说不做的人,超反感的。偏偏现在遇到了几个版本的这类人物。看到你们逍遥的那副模样我就上火了。
我不介意多做一些,我也不是计较工作份量是否平分,可是难道在我已经忙得不可开交的时候,你不能分担一点吗?
也许吧,就在这种情况下才看得清一个人的面目。

为什么总是要我收拾烂摊子?很厌倦了。。。现在呢,难道连你们之间的事,也要我来解决??你们三人的感情如何,我想我明白;我更清楚自己的地位,我没有必要去理会,反正 你 也不当我一回事。我想知道的,没有说,就算了。这种麻烦事儿,却像往我的口袋里塞。要命阿~ 我不想插手,解铃还需系铃人,让 你 去解决吧。。

Monday, June 29, 2009

TERRIBLE!!!

So much so that I try to accept you as a normal person...
yet each time I do, I get VERY disappointed.

Can't believe how TERRIBLY SELFISH you are!! What is it about? Hiding the truth and only telling it when the harm has been done?? Do you EVER know how much it costs solely because YOU wana get YOUR things done???!!!

And yet you act so INNOCENT over it??!!! I AM terribly PISSED OFF by you!!!!!!

Each time I tell myself not to do the mistake again, each time I did it again.
The fact that I try to accept you.
So stupid of me...



there ARE reasons why people don't wanna get involved with you...

Sunday, June 28, 2009

talk

Somehow I find it hard to just talk now. Or maybe I'm just in one of the strange modes again these days.
I might be arrogant, I might be stubborn or ignorant. Soehow whatever I do or say is just disagreed or disapproved upon by those who are claimed to be much higher leveled.
Yes, I might be wrong sometimes (or everytime). But do I have the chance to speak up and explain my reason for that?
This is the true nature of the society, that I have to accept. Just so fed up and helpless over it...
As well, I wouldn't wana make people give what they are unwilling to.

Sometimes, and many a times, I really envy with the sight of giggling and chatting away. It makes me think, how long ago have I really talked?
I just wish I had someone to talk to.
A nice long talk.


I am alone in the middle of no where.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Tribute

The least expected that appeared on my screen after the lab session. That Micheal Jackson has passed away. Though not exactly a fan, I can't be not influenced by his talent and by his hufe influence aroudn the world. A talent, a superstar that we have lost.
And then there are those thousands of tributes paid to him upon his death.
Tributes? Which might come just too late. Which are only done at just this time.
What has he been treated as years when he was still alive?
Anything and everything to create his hardship in life besides his health problem that he has to face?
Ridiculous...

For all your contributions and achievements, I salute you.
May you be reborn in a higher state.
Sadhu sadhu sadhu...


~Treasure what you have now. Don't mourn over it only when it is too late.~

Sunday, June 07, 2009

not again...

Too common a scene...

sprained~
... of my dresser~

That means I got myself in trouble again... boo~

Hah.. I'm ok.

Thursday, June 04, 2009

Fish

There is a fish pond so you buy fish food to go feed.

~Tiffany Theorem~ =)


Did you mention there was fish there?
Wahahahahaahahhahahahaaa...


Btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING CHUNNIE!!!
생일 촉하해!!! MuaxxxMuaxxxx~~ ^^

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Christien New

Just realised the guest speaker at the Co-op briefing was really a celebrity. The Beck of the Malaysian version of Posh-&-Beck!! *I could have rush over and haunt him for autograph... Have been losing my paparazzi sense lately...* I'd had known if his charming wife was there though ^^
Definitely the talk was a lot more lively than last time. Though Christien had a touch of humor, he is strict in his own way. The fact that he made all the latecomers join in the talk by a walk across the stage! And a handful of applauses~~!! No regrets for a 3-hour sit. Haha!

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Honey, so glad that you are moving on with a positive mind. So lucky that you are still studying here, which I believe there are other ex-schoolmates and known people around. *Oh I feel lonely :( *
So glad that you are still with me. ^^
Gambateh!! It's a tough winding road ahead, but let it be one with colors. :)

Friday, May 29, 2009

helpless

How bad, to almost forgetting the marked schedule of the AGM. Ending up disrupting a movie plan and ffk-ing the crazy guy... sorry pal. :(

And how surprising, how shocked.
Never have I expected ending up in the committee itself. And obviously some people are not happy with the results. but not that I can help it. Why why why did I get chosen? I cannot reject the post, of course; it would definitely determine my future days in the university, and after. I don't know if I should decide to want it or not, not that I have a choice. No, there is the willingness to serve for the student chapter, but this adds the worry and side effects. The fact that transport and time are critical. The thousands of unsolved unhelped problems surfaced... I'm all messed up, all anxious, all scared.
左右为难,怎么办?

I will try my best. Please forgive me.

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Helpless. Very.

I don't know how and why it started, but didn't expect it to come this far. Yes, it's too much, to the extend that it is adding to the stress I have already received.
I'd rather not have it, but for the sake of friends, I can sing along sometimes. Patience, ignorance. But now it's getting too over, or at least, I'm not in the favor of it.
Things are just simple. Friends are friends, all the same. Why should things be so complicated? I do hope it would not affect my life negatively. Especially after the fact that I have to face the faces, at campus, at home. At least, I wish there are little moments in the everyday life when I can revise and smile in the midst of rush hours or during work or reflect on before end a hectic day.

Please, let things return to normal.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

三个星期

开学以来,
第一个星期,很闷,在家很显,要出门又没事做。
第二个星期,又开始打篮球啦,有一年没碰的篮球,有几年没比的赛。手脚很硬,没力,手软。
~丽云啊,我们的约会还在泡汤啊~
还有啊,又跌跌扭扭了几会,很衰。
有事儿做啦,心情总是紧绷着,有得拼命用手挥着。。。手更要断了~~
第三个星期,使该认真了该读书了。却好像也很废的过去了。然后又去唱k了,三个星期内唱了三次,没有酱geng,不过是我的纪录。哈~
就知道有个人会把很多工作往身上扛,所以自己也去鸡婆了。
更爱玩相机和捉弄人了。新的style,被视穿了,哈哈~
累了,也疯狂了。
疯狂得上课也在笑啊笑。还被老师blacklist了吧~
自己变了。也许不是变坏了,原来的我就是这样。只是变得更放肆了。就是不好啦。但就是对于书的朋友才会说的话。这样呢,到底是好事吗?
对于一些人,很抱歉,我没有资格。我也没想到会到这种地步。
不是故意忽略你,反正是左右为难,那不如让自己过得开心一点点。
很多事情,不知道的也终于确认了,反而让我不知说出的话是真是假。
而我,还是那么差劲,该说的还是说不出口。
结果,自己也是没两样。
该知道的,不该知道的;是真心的,还是故意说给我听的。
最讨厌的prejudice。好累。
想吐苦水,没落脚之处。更累。

认真点吧。再不自救就没办法了。

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

deadline

Today.

And I did it.
With very much lagging schedule, I was lucky the end product worked, except for the one LED that got on my nerves. I survived, with the bruises, but it's fine. Dangerously swaying pass the border of failure, thanks to the last minute fabrication works. :P

Not a perfect one, and could be much better that others could do, but it is still a record for me, a product in seven days.
And lots of thanks to all who helped me out here and there. COuldn't have survived without you!! haha~

Pretty tired. Auto-switched to sleep mode now.
I want a break. Can I? Plzzz...

Saturday, May 16, 2009

X Alien @ PDN

PDN I'm back.

Finally after one year and eight months, I got to donate blood again.
And seriously, at PDN not because of the food! it's because there are the facilities and (I assume) the professionalism to treat special (or weird) People (a.k.a ALIENs!) like me.

And 'special' enough, my blood pressure was somewhat low, my blood flow was VERY slow. It took 20 minutes to collect 350ml of blood. Terrible huh?
And not to say, dad will quarantine me from PDN for some time, again.

And probably because of the lower blood pressure, I seldom sweat too even when I play sports. Hmmm...

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Wat 'a...

How I missed the step, I don't know.
I just know how ugly it looked when hearing the aunty hurrying over and checking if I lost my arm or my head or not...
Thank goodness the laptop was safe... Haha~
Here comes the bruises again. Twice in less than a year's time. No rolling off this time.

Talking about drains, hah. People, don't drink from Hot/Cold Drains at the water filter!! They are called drains because they drain WASTE WATER!!!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

As you wish

If I never asked, You will never tell.
Shall I say, I'm rather disappointed that you even denied.

But thanks for talking anyway.
And as you wish, I'll do what you requested.
Good luck to you. :)

Saturday, May 09, 2009

Quiet Wesak

Happy Wesak to all.
Sadhu, sadhu, sadhu.

Lantern

the crowd

It's unexpectedly quiet for the occasion at the temple this year, With only about one third of the usual crowd.

But more beggars around.

Had my beloved vegetarian lunch :D

paper lunchbox

It's now packed in paper lunchbox, environmental :)

A mission unaccomplished. The blood donation center was full. Hmmm... There goes another 'next week'.

"Dhamma in Motion", the theme of this Wesak. A keen to return to the Dhamma.
To retrace the purer me I used to be, to advance deeper into the world of Dhamma.

Worldly life is rather tiring. Is it possible for me to renounce from it?
I doubt. For now.

Friday, May 08, 2009

A Lot of Nonsense

A lot of fuss
A lot of tears
A lot of people
A lot of money -
A lot of time
And all for what?
A lot of trouble
A little body!
A blob of protein
Fast unwinding,
A little corpse
Quick decaying.
No longer is it
Dear Father, mother
Or any darling other
In spite of this
We must have
Consolations and coffins
Processions and Tombstones
Parties and mourning
Rites and rituals
Buried or burnt
Embalmed forever,
All for these little
Bloated bodies.
Sons remember
Grandsons little,
And after them
are the dead forgotten,
Stones and bones alone remaining
So is this not
A lot of nonsense?


~Khantipalo~

Music-Man

Saw a hero in town last Saturday... not Ironman, spiderman or superman, but Music-man!!
Hahaha...

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The concert was great, of course! The guitar "Bahamut" was awfully handsome~ It was really the sacred weapon :P
I lurv the lines at the opening.
"...心跳加速,喉咙沙哑,血脉喷胀,四肢无力。这些就是看MUSIC-MAN演唱会,会友的正常生理反应。..."
Halfway true though..hehe...

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A significant part is LeeHom's band! Oh yea, 小王,小力,小宏 were all there!!

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小力 was shy and had a really cute slang! ^^
How he actually brought them here, that caught the audience with many wonders.
Hmm... trick of pre-recording and great acting, I'd say.
Good job, Leehom!!

And oooh.. when he emerged with a lovely tune of violin~~~ all melted!!

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A lil of "Wishing upon A Star" and a full song of "落叶归根",how touching it was.
I still wish there were more of violin-ing.

The setup of the stage was unique as well. The huge screens focused on the super-hero.

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Though it shouldn't be compared with the previous one, since the themes of the concerts are different, I still prefer the previous concert. Probably just a bit too much of video clips in between stressing of the other super-heros. Also a bit too much of tricks here and there, such as the 'magic' part as he disappeared in a box and appeared from the centre of the stadium. That was the 'accelerating' rap I was anticipating, but the speed was far lower. =(

And then, there was the restriction from taking photos (and thus the quality of the photos). I thought photographing without flash was allowed...?!

Overall, the show was worth the price. Especially those who get to get in close contact with Leehom~~ ^^
Too bad, not me.

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

转折点

开课了。好短的假期。有再回到岗位,想到那‘埋头苦干’的画面,还真可怕。
这学期有新挑战了,得更苦干了,唉~
有些为她担心,不想让她像我那么辛苦,担心她选错科。
是不是担心的太多了?应该对她有点信心。

已经成为事实,该面对了。Everything happens for a reason.
今天,希望我没说错什么话。也不知道你实说溜了嘴,还是故意让我知道的。
虽然我可以当作不关我的事,但我也曾经努力过,我也不想身边的人受挫(也许也不至于)。
也许那就是未来的事实,但也并不代表他们不好。
Indeed, they seem better.


谢谢大家,听我胡闹一轮。
minasan,加油啊!



And of course, congrates Dad & Mom.
Love you ^^

Monday, May 04, 2009

挣扎

脑袋感觉很空白。有点难以进入状况。
虽然自己的事情也有所预料的,也许自己忽略了很多,遗忘的更多。
感觉自己长大了,却更想活在过去。

回忆这东西,多是制造出来的,是自己经验累积的。
突然却很厌倦他,只能到给自己过去的快乐。
因为回不了的过去,也不能创造那回忆里的过去。

是该这样吗?需要那么悲观的看待吗?
曾经那感恩的心,那珍惜一切的理念都跑到哪儿去了?
什么时候变得那么严重性的追求物质上的享受了?

那么,快乐又是什么?
是达到目标后的快感,还是过程中的感受?
两者兼得很难,那该选择哪个?
现在的努力,是为了有个好前途。也就是为了好的未来铺个路。
可是到头来,这些也不都是物质享受的追求吗?

好乱。思绪,情绪,都很乱,很复杂。
好想静一静。。。

好久没有好好念一念佛学书了。
污染了的心境,渴望净化。。。

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

@Genting~

Finally set foot again at the highlands. And as usual, it's more boys than girls. :P

The Appetizers

A pretty rushing and weird schedule, which ended up Tiff and I waiting at my house for hours before another hour at the terminal and yet another one and a quarter hours at the Skyway station. hoohoo... We had a 'buffet dinner' of various pickles and snacks at a store there~

Photoholic! The camera in hand is the best medicine to cure boredom.
And thanks to Tiff and Wei for taking over the camera-person job sometimes. :)

Cable car!! I don't know why I like it (maybe because it brings me to Genting?!), and it's the first time going up at night.
It was cool!

My first time staying at the apartment block. Experienced the distance from it to the central of the little town, it wasn't as tiring as imagined. :)
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And the cold winds that I miss the most...

Main Course
Two ultimate tasks. First, to enter the Casino legally!! (No, I never entered illegally~)
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Our aim.. is to get the free drinks.. Haha~ I adore the lights and glamore inside, which was themed with different designs at various sections. And it was cool we had a guide.. it was Meng! :P Didn't know he was so knowledgeable with the place...hehe. And thank you a lot for the sponsor, though unfortunately lady luck wasn't with me.

The second task at Theme Park - Space Shot!!! Whooo... Been on a similar one in Taiwan, but not this. Jek and I have been longing for it the whole day!
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The Space-Shot Squad :P
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YEA~ MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!! :D (And TS's unbelieving look?!)

Side Dishes
Bowling! I've so longed for...
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And the unforgetable vertical throw into the air by Tiff!! Whaahaha.. damn scary!! XD

Snookering and Pooling~
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The most popular activity - Card games. Chor-dai-di.
It was there the first night,
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The second night..
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Even in the cable car...
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And basketball shooting.
First night..
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Second night..
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Yumcha-ing
Old Town
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Starbucks
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Dessert

Lazy-ing around...
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HH-ing...
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And no, I'm not part of it. :P

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The spoiler of the trip, is rain. The so many rides we have to forfit because of it.
But overall, it was more than just great. The circumstances, the dizzy head came visiting again as expected, but well, hopefully will be over in a few weeks.
And even more important, the people to go with. *Huge thanks to the guys for accommodating the two of the girls!*

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Sunday, April 26, 2009

We Are

Finally met up S Ying after almost a year.

So glad we could still chat like the first day we met. And how surprising that we could talk about those that I never talked about with anyone else. Thanks for lending an ear, thanks for your opinions.

It's a huge pity that we didn't meet up earlier. I do hope we will still be whom we are when we meet again.

All the best, friend. :)

Saturday, April 25, 2009

World Water Day

The significant but seemingly unknown day. Water that makes the Earth special and blue, that gives life to living things and structure of everything else. How beautiful it is, yet many are taking for granted of it.
Oh, too much crapping~

Well probably what made the day more significant to me was it's relation to Rynn.. hehe. Attended the Tinge World Water Music Festival at BTS, where we were happily supplied with few bottles of free Tinge! No Rynn no Tinge... muahahahahaha~~

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Anyway Rynn was there to perform, we were there to see him.

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There were a few other artists, including Will Ng. Somehow the crowd was there mostly for Rynn (and Will), kinda pity the others that they didn't get much of audience reaction when they tried to make the show more 'lively'.. (err.. shaking too much?!)

Even more thrilled when knowing the autograph session was for the postcards and posters!! Hoohoo... and thus us with our loads on stage. A last-minute request and got my name beautifully signed on one of the posters :D Undoubtfully happy~~

And later, got to talk to him a bit (and rather idiotically) close up. He's getting rather skinny nowadays... worrying, I'd say? Sweet guy, told us (again) to take care when going home :)

Quite some time since we last saw him. While he keeps himself in his room wit his guitar, I hope he will eat more :P
Kinda miss the cute strong TieTou...


And people, love the Earth, save water!!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Missed

I was wondering what it is that marked the date of yesterday.
And I just realised...

It was Hins's Concert!!

Too occupied by exam preparation that I even forgot about this.. (or should this be better off than having myself grieving over it? :P )

Ooo... how I had longed for it :(

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Hmm...

Alright. So I might not be some superwoman, though I do try to help as I can. But that doesn't mean you can take advantage of it.

What do you treat me as??

To you, it might seem so easy that I just give a hand.
Somehow, I'm fed up with the way you ask for it, that you take for granted of it.

I thought you were a friend.



Come on, I'm also a human.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

說服

The least I can do
is to not let me worry you.


坚强一点。

Saturday, April 04, 2009

again

Just when I need the highest efficiency and output power from my brain, it starts to overheat.

I caught flu again!

Very bad timing...

Thursday, April 02, 2009

Look what I did

I got pissed off by the shuttle service yesterday, so I made a firm determination to make a complaint about it. So I ended up at the SAO. And so the head happened to be around when I submitted the feedback form. And so he got to hear the complaint from me. And so he directed me to talk to the head of the department in charge!

Whooo... I hardly predict it would be so efficient to get a reply, in say, 20 minutes??!!
And the reason to my complaint is, the shuttle buses have been sent for maintenance.

Oh okay. So we didn't know about it, and we are supposed to be understanding of it!
WHAT IS THIS??
Anyway, huge thanks to the SAO head for the help.

The day was considered with a bit of excitement. Haha. With me sleeping only a total 9 hours in three days - yes I'm terribly exhausted now - I had a huge task which dragged me to the college so early.
I was there for drama shooting!!
Ermm.. well, just a little Kelefeh in the background, glad that we didn't have any talking to do or the super-blur me would certainly get scolded! :P A great experience though :) [Oh, and even skipping class, just for the little pay~]

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Sunday, March 22, 2009

生日会啊~

我想这是第一次也是最后一次在家里办生日会啦。。(哈,姐姐有,我也来一个了~)
很高兴又和我的dear见面啦!还有我们家孟哲和小刀,看来五五六六还没出现得七七八八啊。。不过很感谢你们出席啊!好想念你们哦。。。

我说你们这一班男生啊。。。终于体会到你们有多恐怖啦!!一到来就乱了我的节拍呀。。。汗~
为了不辜负你们要求,我还是真的豁出去啦!!好耶,让我穿上裙子就不能和你们一起闹啦~!!
不过很感谢你们的大礼物,很喜欢 谢谢~~ (不要再叫我穿了,好吗?)

可惜啊,这次的蛋糕不如以前的好吃,奇怪当时怎么那么喜欢啊。。。嗯,是蛋糕我都喜欢!!哈哈~

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Thank you all who came, thank you all who remembered... :)
A great birthday eve~

My 21st

The so-called "officially an adult" day...

But then, I don't feel like growing up~
Haha...
It feels so heavy to be a grown-up, or even taking a final year course in a month's time... arghhh~

Anyway, some aims to accomplish this year (I hope).
First, I want to be healthy!! Really wish to go swimming every week (though it kills my hair), or at least a jog or two in a week. I've been getting bruises over my legs and hands lately, hah... should be more careful la, clumsy girl!

Second, to get rid of my specs!! Have been getting tired of my glasses since last year, I wonder if I should just get a laser op, and I do worry...

Most of all, I want a smooth year, and everyone well and happy...

Thursday, March 19, 2009

差劲

梦想还是妄想?

我自己都分不清。

是之前台高估了自己,还是到现在都不相信自己的能力?
为什么别人能办得到,我却还呆在这里,来回不定?



我到底有没有奋斗过?

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Ah Sian's 22nd

After two weeks, I'm finnaly gonna update about it.

The first time I joining in the celebration of one of their birthdays. A great time indeed. It was a long time that I had a day off! Hung out at the boys' place, watching Boys Before Flowers when my eyelids were struggling to open..haha~

Was the first time (I thought) I went to the Look-out Point... when in fact I had drove up that hill when I was training for my driving license!! Haha... a great view indeed from the peak.

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And a whole lot of thanks to JF who gave me a ride home :)

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

结果。。。

计划一次又一次的延迟,当我终于做好心理准备要到外头居住时,突然有告吹了~
也难怪我那么念家,到哪里也只是‘暂居者’!哈~
是有点失望,还是没得尝试自个儿的生活,
当时还想着终于可以和大伙儿们去打球啊,喝茶啊,之类的。。。
后来却又有些开心,因为还可以在家吃晚饭!!=)

那边的人说搬出去方便很多,这里的人说家里比较温暖。。。

结果我就继续两地跑的生活!
是更加累了,更多复习要做,更多事情要处理。。。

撑着点儿。。。加油吧!!

Sunday, March 01, 2009

爱的鼓励!

Feb 28, 2009, Sat
It was a super long and tiring day for me. But it was way longer for them.

Strangely I wasn't in the committee for both the events, yet I was in campus the whole day til night for both. So kay-poh..hah~

Went over to kacau at the TechComm Camp after the Zilog Workshop. Such a pity that an event was REALLY FINALLY going on and I was already out of the committee. But still had a 'guest appearance'!! To get into trouble.. eheh~
And as usual, as the paparazzi~

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Just too bored...

During spotted Mr Ammar's cute cute son during ice-breaking!!
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The banner and the little peoplesss~

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[From left] Dr Hikmat, the committee and I!

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The swimming pool was closed. But later saw people wadding out of it.

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While they were having group discussion.

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tire, tire, tire!!

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The crazily uncontrollable people!!

And as expected, the games were the most fun part (coz the other parts were boring to them...)
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My assigned station

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Way Meng's which he flew off from to get the dinner ready~

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This was the MOST FUN of all!!! But I couldn't watch from my station being blocked~ sobzzz

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Suen Eng's station. This was challenging but interesting~

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Danny's station. Should be fun watchin them too.

The BBQ dinner was supposed to be the most anticipated part, but ended up the committee and so few of the locals 'enjoying' it.
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Oh look! The tahpau-ing people!

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The leftovers, btw

And while waiting for the caterer to clear before we do the finishings, we have entertainment.

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Special performance but the previous VPs. =)

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It was then someone brought up the clapping of 爱的鼓励,which was fresh since I haven't done it for more than a year now (followed by a mixed-up clapping echo of the foreigners nearby..haha). It was fun, it really was.

It was indeed so much more work than expected, especially with the lack of committee members. Got some rough feedback (most are...), and well, what do you expect for an event about technical communication? I salute you all especially those who stayed up the nights (and hopefully you won't do that again) to cater the preparations! I'd say, this was even better than the Tech Comm course we had previously! And hey, the games were cool! (I must conquer the blowing ping-pong balls thingy~!!)

One good thing about it all is that ESA is made known to the juniors. And some came around to ask about it and some were even interested to join the committee. That's the huge reward of all the hard work. Such a relief!

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爱的鼓励. It was what the team needed, encouragement. From external sources, as well as among themselves. So people, GAMBATEH!!

And thank you.
Thanks so much for making me feel like a part.