永别了

“许伟伦去世了。”

这消息来得如此振叹，难以置信，我却知道那是真的。
虽然不是她的歌迷影迷，但对她的印象不前，所以心里总是感觉酸酸的。

世事无长，车祸更难以预料。大概十年前，张雨生也是这样走的。其实艺人也是人类，也会发生意外，也要受保护。。。

该走的，始终会走。

永别了，伟伦。

逃避

最终,还是必须选择逃避。

绕了一大圈，终究回到原点。心情一次又一次被推下深谷。为何我们的关系总是因她而遭破坏。。。
为什么每一次都显得是我们的错？

难道我的要求那么过分吗？
我安静，不代表我接受。
我闭嘴，不代表我认同。
我不要求，并不表示我很满足。

或许是因为从小就是个话不多的人，所以他们不知道我心里想的是什么，更不理会我要的是什么。但人性始终会变的。我开始发表意见时，他们却不愿意接受。

他们，也是只想逃避。
不想面对在改变的我们，在变化的世界。

不接受，不聆听，形成了最大的距离。沟通出现问题。感情也就出现裂痕。

其实我是很爱他们的，他们不晓得。也许，我爱得不够，我付出的不多。。。

也许，我该像她一样，离开。
离开一阵子，我会更爱大家，会更珍惜他们。

只是，我不知道，他们是否也会这样。。。 。。。

refresh

Got tired of my blog's template. Wasn't quite my favorite color anyway.

Finally resolved to this one. Seems to me a winter-like place. Like the snowing winter in Beijing.




These were taken from the windows of our apartment.

The happiest of winter was to wake up in the morning welcomed by the moderately heavy snow. Then the whole day would be spent outdoors.

Those were the days...

木头

最近不知怎么啦。感觉很纳闷，很无奈。
最近变得很讨厌自己，甚至开始恨这个世界。
心里有种气，闷着，发泄不了。。。

佛堂上课时，老师要我们进行交友活动，我很不幸的，被配选了一个年级比较小的男生。而且，它是个‘木头’，更是个‘香蕉人’。那更没话说了。害得老师要来敲一敲我们。哎，感觉像再看以前的我，真受不了！

这年头有点衰。好像回到从前的我了。在大学交朋友真难，更何况我念的科系，更是雪上加霜。多希望我不会是系上唯一的女生，不知以后的日子该怎么熬呀。。。

是不是自己闷骚了，竟然在学校发了点脾气。不过那个人是该‘骂’的，谁叫他那么重色！还有那些人，撞墙吧！！

New Year

This is the first post of the year.

It's weird. There seems to be no sense of new year in myself. Still tagging along with the past. Hmm...

There wasn't much celebration of the New Year for me. Had hoped to join the fun at Sungei Wang, where Rynn was attending a Countdown Party, but... ah, you've guessed it.

So all I did was sticking to the TV trying to catch every bit of Rynn, having some red wine and Tobelrone to celebrate. Unfortunately, the MCs were too talkative and too noisy that Rynn wasn't interviewed before the live telecast ended.

So much feeling of down these days. I wonder why. Might be because of my studies, or my family, or my friends. Or Rynn. So frustrating, thinking of the beloved photos taken with him just lost like that. Well, my sister is lucky, she got had a 'new' second-hand phone (while I'm still wondering when I'll get mine). But the sweet memories would only be in my mind, might even fade away, and I have lost the photos forever...

What will become of me this year? A source says that those of Aries will be quite lucky. I wonder, I doubt, I hope. It will definitely be a tough year.

New year resolution? To work harder in my studies.
It's the same for every year. Plus, I hope to wash away my bad habits.
Easier said than done.