Weird

Its been raining everyday past few weeks.

Why? Cuz the rain god, Rynn Lim is back in Malaysia! (yeah rite...)

The sad thing is, I can't go to his events.
Ahh.. my heart is weeping.

All because the family is busy with the new house. So much trouble. Renovating, cleaning, packing. Not only that, arguements, waitings, disappointments, mistakes (or merely ignorance), and... stupidity?! It all comes in a package.

But then, I'm quite eager to move into my new room which has a great view of the condominium blocks nearby. Much more of scenery and greenery as compared to the current one. Much bigger too. ;)

Rynn, I miss you so much!!!

The moral studies presentation went on this week. Tuesday's was quite 'interesting', or not, but still is unique comapred to others. The group of India girls presented a sketch to accompany their pslide presentation. The strange thing is, when the other groups are supposed to have only 2 representatives to present, this group had 4 of them speaking.
It ain't fair to us.
But although speaking loudly and much more professionally, they were seem to just reading the slides without digesting the facts. Without being able to answer the questions directed to them, they kept giving the reason that their slides went off.

That's why, don't talk too much. You've gotta think as well.

As for today's presentation, They too had three presenters. Their problem is, they seem not to had good relations among themselves.
The main speaker seem not satisfied with his members. How would someone say the class and the lecturer that their members did not put in much effort?? This would show that he thinks superior of himself. And the consequence might be that they get lower marks. Group work should be done in a group. If you've chosen the wrong members, then it's your problem.

What is life? It's quite confusing. Taking transport 3 hours per day? Studying day and night? Chasing after your favourite idol? Eat and sleep all day?

Why do we have to live? To wait for the death?
Why does rebirth take place? And that we have to strive hard to reach our goals, get enlightenment?
What if I'm reborn as an animal, a bird, a cow, a dog, a pig, whatever, or ghost, or deva? What is I have to suffer all over again?
Why should life be suffering?
Why were we in this universe in the first place?

Seems so weird. Quite tiring.
Life is so much suffering. Unsatisfactoriness.
That's why I'm here. taking 3 hours of tranport time to and fro the university. That's why I'd rather not move out to somewhere near there.
That's why I'm craving to see Rynn.
That's why we want to climb, not fall.
That's why we too have to bear with the society.

It's strange. I come all the way to UCSI from Setapak, while another friend who was an ex-student here go all the way from Bukit Jalil to TARC.
The world is upside down...

Attachment brings suffering. Crave is the cause of suffering.
By discarding crave and attachment, we live happier spiritually.
But this is easier said than done.

I'm still a long way from enlightenment.
Anyway, I'm striving for it.
There is a reason for this.