Just realised the guest speaker at the Co-op briefing was really a celebrity. The Beck of the Malaysian version of Posh-&-Beck!! *I could have rush over and haunt him for autograph... Have been losing my paparazzi sense lately...* I'd had known if his charming wife was there though ^^
Definitely the talk was a lot more lively than last time. Though Christien had a touch of humor, he is strict in his own way. The fact that he made all the latecomers join in the talk by a walk across the stage! And a handful of applauses~~!! No regrets for a 3-hour sit. Haha!
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Honey, so glad that you are moving on with a positive mind. So lucky that you are still studying here, which I believe there are other ex-schoolmates and known people around. *Oh I feel lonely :( *
So glad that you are still with me. ^^
Gambateh!! It's a tough winding road ahead, but let it be one with colors. :)
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
helpless
How bad, to almost forgetting the marked schedule of the AGM. Ending up disrupting a movie plan and ffk-ing the crazy guy... sorry pal. :(
And how surprising, how shocked.
Never have I expected ending up in the committee itself. And obviously some people are not happy with the results. but not that I can help it. Why why why did I get chosen? I cannot reject the post, of course; it would definitely determine my future days in the university, and after. I don't know if I should decide to want it or not, not that I have a choice. No, there is the willingness to serve for the student chapter, but this adds the worry and side effects. The fact that transport and time are critical. The thousands of unsolved unhelped problems surfaced... I'm all messed up, all anxious, all scared.
左右为难，怎么办？
I will try my best. Please forgive me.
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Helpless. Very.
I don't know how and why it started, but didn't expect it to come this far. Yes, it's too much, to the extend that it is adding to the stress I have already received.
I'd rather not have it, but for the sake of friends, I can sing along sometimes. Patience, ignorance. But now it's getting too over, or at least, I'm not in the favor of it.
Things are just simple. Friends are friends, all the same. Why should things be so complicated? I do hope it would not affect my life negatively. Especially after the fact that I have to face the faces, at campus, at home. At least, I wish there are little moments in the everyday life when I can revise and smile in the midst of rush hours or during work or reflect on before end a hectic day.
Please, let things return to normal.
And how surprising, how shocked.
Never have I expected ending up in the committee itself. And obviously some people are not happy with the results. but not that I can help it. Why why why did I get chosen? I cannot reject the post, of course; it would definitely determine my future days in the university, and after. I don't know if I should decide to want it or not, not that I have a choice. No, there is the willingness to serve for the student chapter, but this adds the worry and side effects. The fact that transport and time are critical. The thousands of unsolved unhelped problems surfaced... I'm all messed up, all anxious, all scared.
左右为难，怎么办？
I will try my best. Please forgive me.
---
Helpless. Very.
I don't know how and why it started, but didn't expect it to come this far. Yes, it's too much, to the extend that it is adding to the stress I have already received.
I'd rather not have it, but for the sake of friends, I can sing along sometimes. Patience, ignorance. But now it's getting too over, or at least, I'm not in the favor of it.
Things are just simple. Friends are friends, all the same. Why should things be so complicated? I do hope it would not affect my life negatively. Especially after the fact that I have to face the faces, at campus, at home. At least, I wish there are little moments in the everyday life when I can revise and smile in the midst of rush hours or during work or reflect on before end a hectic day.
Please, let things return to normal.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
三个星期
开学以来，
第一个星期，很闷，在家很显，要出门又没事做。
第二个星期，又开始打篮球啦，有一年没碰的篮球，有几年没比的赛。手脚很硬，没力，手软。
~丽云啊，我们的约会还在泡汤啊~
还有啊，又跌跌扭扭了几会，很衰。
有事儿做啦，心情总是紧绷着，有得拼命用手挥着。。。手更要断了~~
第三个星期，使该认真了该读书了。却好像也很废的过去了。然后又去唱k了，三个星期内唱了三次，没有酱geng，不过是我的纪录。哈~
就知道有个人会把很多工作往身上扛，所以自己也去鸡婆了。
更爱玩相机和捉弄人了。新的style，被视穿了,哈哈~
累了，也疯狂了。
疯狂得上课也在笑啊笑。还被老师blacklist了吧~
自己变了。也许不是变坏了，原来的我就是这样。只是变得更放肆了。就是不好啦。但就是对于书的朋友才会说的话。这样呢，到底是好事吗？
对于一些人，很抱歉，我没有资格。我也没想到会到这种地步。
不是故意忽略你，反正是左右为难，那不如让自己过得开心一点点。
很多事情，不知道的也终于确认了，反而让我不知说出的话是真是假。
而我，还是那么差劲，该说的还是说不出口。
结果，自己也是没两样。
该知道的，不该知道的；是真心的，还是故意说给我听的。
最讨厌的prejudice。好累。
想吐苦水，没落脚之处。更累。
认真点吧。再不自救就没办法了。
第一个星期，很闷，在家很显，要出门又没事做。
第二个星期，又开始打篮球啦，有一年没碰的篮球，有几年没比的赛。手脚很硬，没力，手软。
~丽云啊，我们的约会还在泡汤啊~
还有啊，又跌跌扭扭了几会，很衰。
有事儿做啦，心情总是紧绷着，有得拼命用手挥着。。。手更要断了~~
第三个星期，使该认真了该读书了。却好像也很废的过去了。然后又去唱k了，三个星期内唱了三次，没有酱geng，不过是我的纪录。哈~
就知道有个人会把很多工作往身上扛，所以自己也去鸡婆了。
更爱玩相机和捉弄人了。新的style，被视穿了,哈哈~
累了，也疯狂了。
疯狂得上课也在笑啊笑。还被老师blacklist了吧~
自己变了。也许不是变坏了，原来的我就是这样。只是变得更放肆了。就是不好啦。但就是对于书的朋友才会说的话。这样呢，到底是好事吗？
对于一些人，很抱歉，我没有资格。我也没想到会到这种地步。
不是故意忽略你，反正是左右为难，那不如让自己过得开心一点点。
很多事情，不知道的也终于确认了，反而让我不知说出的话是真是假。
而我，还是那么差劲，该说的还是说不出口。
结果，自己也是没两样。
该知道的，不该知道的；是真心的，还是故意说给我听的。
最讨厌的prejudice。好累。
想吐苦水，没落脚之处。更累。
认真点吧。再不自救就没办法了。
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
deadline
Today.
And I did it.
With very much lagging schedule, I was lucky the end product worked, except for the one LED that got on my nerves. I survived, with the bruises, but it's fine. Dangerously swaying pass the border of failure, thanks to the last minute fabrication works. :P
Not a perfect one, and could be much better that others could do, but it is still a record for me, a product in seven days.
And lots of thanks to all who helped me out here and there. COuldn't have survived without you!! haha~
Pretty tired. Auto-switched to sleep mode now.
I want a break. Can I? Plzzz...
And I did it.
With very much lagging schedule, I was lucky the end product worked, except for the one LED that got on my nerves. I survived, with the bruises, but it's fine. Dangerously swaying pass the border of failure, thanks to the last minute fabrication works. :P
Not a perfect one, and could be much better that others could do, but it is still a record for me, a product in seven days.
And lots of thanks to all who helped me out here and there. COuldn't have survived without you!! haha~
Pretty tired. Auto-switched to sleep mode now.
I want a break. Can I? Plzzz...
Saturday, May 16, 2009
X Alien @ PDN
PDN I'm back.
Finally after one year and eight months, I got to donate blood again.
And seriously, at PDN not because of the food! it's because there are the facilities and (I assume) the professionalism to treat special (or weird) People (a.k.a ALIENs!) like me.
And 'special' enough, my blood pressure was somewhat low, my blood flow was VERY slow. It took 20 minutes to collect 350ml of blood. Terrible huh?
And not to say, dad will quarantine me from PDN for some time, again.
And probably because of the lower blood pressure, I seldom sweat too even when I play sports. Hmmm...
Finally after one year and eight months, I got to donate blood again.
And seriously, at PDN not because of the food! it's because there are the facilities and (I assume) the professionalism to treat special (or weird) People (a.k.a ALIENs!) like me.
And 'special' enough, my blood pressure was somewhat low, my blood flow was VERY slow. It took 20 minutes to collect 350ml of blood. Terrible huh?
And not to say, dad will quarantine me from PDN for some time, again.
And probably because of the lower blood pressure, I seldom sweat too even when I play sports. Hmmm...
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Wat 'a...
How I missed the step, I don't know.
I just know how ugly it looked when hearing the aunty hurrying over and checking if I lost my arm or my head or not...
Thank goodness the laptop was safe... Haha~
Here comes the bruises again. Twice in less than a year's time. No rolling off this time.
Talking about drains, hah. People, don't drink from Hot/Cold Drains at the water filter!! They are called drains because they drain WASTE WATER!!!
I just know how ugly it looked when hearing the aunty hurrying over and checking if I lost my arm or my head or not...
Thank goodness the laptop was safe... Haha~
Here comes the bruises again. Twice in less than a year's time. No rolling off this time.
Talking about drains, hah. People, don't drink from Hot/Cold Drains at the water filter!! They are called drains because they drain WASTE WATER!!!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
As you wish
If I never asked, You will never tell.
Shall I say, I'm rather disappointed that you even denied.
But thanks for talking anyway.
And as you wish, I'll do what you requested.
Good luck to you. :)
Shall I say, I'm rather disappointed that you even denied.
But thanks for talking anyway.
And as you wish, I'll do what you requested.
Good luck to you. :)
Saturday, May 09, 2009
Quiet Wesak
Happy Wesak to all.
Sadhu, sadhu, sadhu.
It's unexpectedly quiet for the occasion at the temple this year, With only about one third of the usual crowd.
But more beggars around.
Had my beloved vegetarian lunch :D
It's now packed in paper lunchbox, environmental :)
A mission unaccomplished. The blood donation center was full. Hmmm... There goes another 'next week'.
"Dhamma in Motion", the theme of this Wesak. A keen to return to the Dhamma.
To retrace the purer me I used to be, to advance deeper into the world of Dhamma.
Worldly life is rather tiring. Is it possible for me to renounce from it?
I doubt. For now.
Sadhu, sadhu, sadhu.
It's unexpectedly quiet for the occasion at the temple this year, With only about one third of the usual crowd.
But more beggars around.
Had my beloved vegetarian lunch :D
It's now packed in paper lunchbox, environmental :)
A mission unaccomplished. The blood donation center was full. Hmmm... There goes another 'next week'.
"Dhamma in Motion", the theme of this Wesak. A keen to return to the Dhamma.
To retrace the purer me I used to be, to advance deeper into the world of Dhamma.
Worldly life is rather tiring. Is it possible for me to renounce from it?
I doubt. For now.
Friday, May 08, 2009
A Lot of Nonsense
A lot of fuss
A lot of tears
A lot of people
A lot of money -
A lot of time
And all for what?
A lot of trouble
A little body!
A blob of protein
Fast unwinding,
A little corpse
Quick decaying.
No longer is it
Dear Father, mother
Or any darling other
In spite of this
We must have
Consolations and coffins
Processions and Tombstones
Parties and mourning
Rites and rituals
Buried or burnt
Embalmed forever,
All for these little
Bloated bodies.
Sons remember
Grandsons little,
And after them
are the dead forgotten,
Stones and bones alone remaining
So is this not
A lot of nonsense?
~Khantipalo~
A lot of tears
A lot of people
A lot of money -
A lot of time
And all for what?
A lot of trouble
A little body!
A blob of protein
Fast unwinding,
A little corpse
Quick decaying.
No longer is it
Dear Father, mother
Or any darling other
In spite of this
We must have
Consolations and coffins
Processions and Tombstones
Parties and mourning
Rites and rituals
Buried or burnt
Embalmed forever,
All for these little
Bloated bodies.
Sons remember
Grandsons little,
And after them
are the dead forgotten,
Stones and bones alone remaining
So is this not
A lot of nonsense?
~Khantipalo~
Music-Man
Saw a hero in town last Saturday... not Ironman, spiderman or superman, but Music-man!!
Hahaha...
The concert was great, of course! The guitar "Bahamut" was awfully handsome~ It was really the sacred weapon :P
I lurv the lines at the opening.
"...心跳加速，喉咙沙哑，血脉喷胀，四肢无力。这些就是看MUSIC-MAN演唱会，会友的正常生理反应。..."
Halfway true though..hehe...
A significant part is LeeHom's band! Oh yea, 小王，小力，小宏 were all there!!
小力 was shy and had a really cute slang! ^^
How he actually brought them here, that caught the audience with many wonders.
Hmm... trick of pre-recording and great acting， I'd say.
Good job, Leehom!!
And oooh.. when he emerged with a lovely tune of violin~~~ all melted!!
A lil of "Wishing upon A Star" and a full song of "落叶归根"，how touching it was.
I still wish there were more of violin-ing.
The setup of the stage was unique as well. The huge screens focused on the super-hero.
Though it shouldn't be compared with the previous one, since the themes of the concerts are different, I still prefer the previous concert. Probably just a bit too much of video clips in between stressing of the other super-heros. Also a bit too much of tricks here and there, such as the 'magic' part as he disappeared in a box and appeared from the centre of the stadium. That was the 'accelerating' rap I was anticipating, but the speed was far lower. =(
And then, there was the restriction from taking photos （and thus the quality of the photos). I thought photographing without flash was allowed...?!
Overall, the show was worth the price. Especially those who get to get in close contact with Leehom~~ ^^
Too bad, not me.
Hahaha...
The concert was great, of course! The guitar "Bahamut" was awfully handsome~ It was really the sacred weapon :P
I lurv the lines at the opening.
"...心跳加速，喉咙沙哑，血脉喷胀，四肢无力。这些就是看MUSIC-MAN演唱会，会友的正常生理反应。..."
Halfway true though..hehe...
A significant part is LeeHom's band! Oh yea, 小王，小力，小宏 were all there!!
小力 was shy and had a really cute slang! ^^
How he actually brought them here, that caught the audience with many wonders.
Hmm... trick of pre-recording and great acting， I'd say.
Good job, Leehom!!
And oooh.. when he emerged with a lovely tune of violin~~~ all melted!!
A lil of "Wishing upon A Star" and a full song of "落叶归根"，how touching it was.
I still wish there were more of violin-ing.
The setup of the stage was unique as well. The huge screens focused on the super-hero.
Though it shouldn't be compared with the previous one, since the themes of the concerts are different, I still prefer the previous concert. Probably just a bit too much of video clips in between stressing of the other super-heros. Also a bit too much of tricks here and there, such as the 'magic' part as he disappeared in a box and appeared from the centre of the stadium. That was the 'accelerating' rap I was anticipating, but the speed was far lower. =(
And then, there was the restriction from taking photos （and thus the quality of the photos). I thought photographing without flash was allowed...?!
Overall, the show was worth the price. Especially those who get to get in close contact with Leehom~~ ^^
Too bad, not me.
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
转折点
开课了。好短的假期。有再回到岗位，想到那‘埋头苦干’的画面，还真可怕。
这学期有新挑战了，得更苦干了，唉~
有些为她担心，不想让她像我那么辛苦，担心她选错科。
是不是担心的太多了？应该对她有点信心。
已经成为事实，该面对了。Everything happens for a reason.
今天，希望我没说错什么话。也不知道你实说溜了嘴，还是故意让我知道的。
虽然我可以当作不关我的事，但我也曾经努力过，我也不想身边的人受挫（也许也不至于）。
也许那就是未来的事实，但也并不代表他们不好。
Indeed, they seem better.
谢谢大家，听我胡闹一轮。
minasan,加油啊！
And of course, congrates Dad & Mom.
Love you ^^
这学期有新挑战了，得更苦干了，唉~
有些为她担心，不想让她像我那么辛苦，担心她选错科。
是不是担心的太多了？应该对她有点信心。
已经成为事实，该面对了。Everything happens for a reason.
今天，希望我没说错什么话。也不知道你实说溜了嘴，还是故意让我知道的。
虽然我可以当作不关我的事，但我也曾经努力过，我也不想身边的人受挫（也许也不至于）。
也许那就是未来的事实，但也并不代表他们不好。
Indeed, they seem better.
谢谢大家，听我胡闹一轮。
minasan,加油啊！
And of course, congrates Dad & Mom.
Love you ^^
Monday, May 04, 2009
挣扎
脑袋感觉很空白。有点难以进入状况。
虽然自己的事情也有所预料的，也许自己忽略了很多，遗忘的更多。
感觉自己长大了，却更想活在过去。
回忆这东西，多是制造出来的，是自己经验累积的。
突然却很厌倦他，只能到给自己过去的快乐。
因为回不了的过去，也不能创造那回忆里的过去。
是该这样吗？需要那么悲观的看待吗？
曾经那感恩的心，那珍惜一切的理念都跑到哪儿去了？
什么时候变得那么严重性的追求物质上的享受了？
那么，快乐又是什么？
是达到目标后的快感，还是过程中的感受？
两者兼得很难，那该选择哪个？
现在的努力，是为了有个好前途。也就是为了好的未来铺个路。
可是到头来，这些也不都是物质享受的追求吗？
好乱。思绪，情绪，都很乱，很复杂。
好想静一静。。。
好久没有好好念一念佛学书了。
污染了的心境，渴望净化。。。
虽然自己的事情也有所预料的，也许自己忽略了很多，遗忘的更多。
感觉自己长大了，却更想活在过去。
回忆这东西，多是制造出来的，是自己经验累积的。
突然却很厌倦他，只能到给自己过去的快乐。
因为回不了的过去，也不能创造那回忆里的过去。
是该这样吗？需要那么悲观的看待吗？
曾经那感恩的心，那珍惜一切的理念都跑到哪儿去了？
什么时候变得那么严重性的追求物质上的享受了？
那么，快乐又是什么？
是达到目标后的快感，还是过程中的感受？
两者兼得很难，那该选择哪个？
现在的努力，是为了有个好前途。也就是为了好的未来铺个路。
可是到头来，这些也不都是物质享受的追求吗？
好乱。思绪，情绪，都很乱，很复杂。
好想静一静。。。
好久没有好好念一念佛学书了。
污染了的心境，渴望净化。。。
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