Keeping the faith

Though it’s kinda surprising when Snowbell mentioned it, but I gotta say, I admit it too.

It’s been more than a year since the dispute. I guess I have gradually accepted it, or at least, part of me is.

My heart is still keeping the faith, hoping for the day when the five will come back together.
My mind is pretty happy with the progress of the trio, loving them more and more each day.
My soul is following which ever that trends currently. Haha.

It's XiahDay today. Happy Birthday to our Junsu boy!! Why is he getting cuter when he's getting older? ^^


Meanwhile keeping the faith in friendship, career, life.

Thanks for ignoring me / bypassing me / not giving a damn of me. Now I see who you are truly.

Though have realized the duplicity side of you, I have tried to think you as being humble.
Though have realized that you have been taking without giving, I have persuaded myself that you just forgot, unintentionally.

And now you are keeping all the good for yourself.

I should start changing my perception towards you.

冤

这就是我的势力。一番折腾后，只能躲在一旁独自哭泣。

活在人家的影子下，承受着那些可笑的大话，谎言。哭笑不得，更不得吭一声。

[Right, since they are so rarely here and significantly my first encounter, I too want a fan account posted :P]


JYJ Showcase Malaysia 2010.

Finally getting to see the boys LIVE!

The last time was seeing them from backstage during TVXQ’s 2nd Asia Tour, when after that I half-lived my life for them (LOL!).

Hoping to see them as a role of audience in the upcoming concert tour, we were disappointed when Malaysia was not included as a stop-over of the tour. Furthermore hopeless it became when the dispute arose between the threesome and their company.

However, our faith paid off well when the new group JYJ scheduled its showcase tour with Malaysia in the list! Things seem to get better as the date was confirmed and the venue was changed to a larger (and more imaginable) premise.


Got the new album of course! =)

Rushing to the venue and reaching just 1 hour before the scheduled time (free seating is a nuisance in this case), saw the queue for the seating area is not as crowded, surprisingly. However, the wait extended long til around 2.30 when two ladies fainted under the OMG SUN… No umbrellas, no water bottles, no food allowed inside, as the organizer was afraid we would throw things to the artist. And Jin was right, we’d rather throw ourselves to them.. LOL!

We happen to be seated with two fans from Japan.. Yes, The Bigeast! They had their Bigeast goodies displayed, which we were strangely excited over xD


Go Bigeast :P

It's Junsu-Jejung-Yuchun!! @@


So what’s the fuss when you get to see them almost anytime through Internet clips?

You’ll get it if you see them... the CHARISMA!! Can’t help giggling, thinking of them in within 100m radius of distance. Though was rather dissatisfied with the size of the stage, when they finally appeared...

OOOOMMMMGGGG!!! SCREAMMMMM!!! (Oh no, I wished for a bigger throat ><)

For a moment we just stared at them as they go with their moves… then continue to SCREAMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!

And the UNBELIEVEABLE feeling is still in me as it was when watching them just 86m away. They are in front of me, of us O.o

Junsu’s voice… *AWWW* Jae’s special moves…OOO… Micky’s charisma @@

Easy to notice, Jae was pretty ‘hot’… the weather added the sweats and reduced his clothes weight :P Situation was rather usual as the two speak Korean and Micky converses in English, and how the crowd would scrrreammm to the duo for popping up some English words ;)

But the translator was pretty annoying, kept walk around and had to be REQUESTED of her translating service (><) Nothing but a vase… The talk cut short is brought many angers of the Cassies indeed... though much possibility is the management's idea, the emcee wasn't communicating the boys to the audience well enough.



We were pretty surprised when the MC popped out the phrase “Before we go, anything to say to the fans?” after merely a 5 minutes talk! And so was Micky, who was shocked by the short time which I guess comparably to other showcases.

I salute the boys for giving their best in everything. Obviously they were exhausted from the tight schedule, but they performed to the very best. Personally enjoyed the Empty Remix the most! *JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP!!*

The showcase was really short-lasting, that we couldn’t believe it was ended. Sitting staring at the stage and missed the scene of the boys leaving the stadium T.T

Couldn’t be stalking them at the press conference after that even though we knew the venue coz someone had to prepare for her exam… we had no transport anyway @@

The worst thing is to lose my glow-stick which slipped off under the seats. A sacrifice to my videos and photos collection…

The best thing, of course, embracing the hearts of Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu :)

And let's hope for the best next year... Always keeping the faith ^^

Path Undefined

A weekend spent wisely?
I don’t know.
All I know is it got me even more lost on planning my future path.

What I want to do and what I should be doing (according to the norms of humans and especially the locals), which are clashing my brain. Dreams that I wish to achieve, yet the ‘mind’ of an engineer-to-be is pulling me back.

Though it’s obvious that in many situations, life is not as ideal as it is in SRC, the so-called work-life balance. Your working life would definitely be a much larger part of your life. Therefore, it is a MUST that I get a job that would serve a passion of my life; an environment where I can slot a part of ‘life’ in willingly.

Availability of choices is tearing me apart.

Whether to stay at my home ground or to take up the challenge in an alien location?
To aim for the technical or to walk the management line?
To further studies now or later?
To specialize in an engineering major or to take the common yet useful MBA?


I know I’m being too desperate. Can’t stop my monkey brain from thinking…
Probably it would be fine if I could have some useful advice (though that’s what’s causing the endless thoughts), especially fine for some career reviews with experience people.

change

When I tell people this, I would expect the reaction “You are so brave!”
It’s not true that I am brave; I have had months of pondering over it. Yet it’s true that I’ve made the decision.
A change could mean something very risky for me, yet I’m taking the step with the purpose of betterment.

Merely one week here. But I guess I can say that, life has been better. At least there’s been some learning, some communicating, some smiles, compared to the previous three weeks.

Sometimes my expectation might be too high, if I were to compare to SRC, but it isn’t bad here.

My Squash Experience

A new sport I have picked up just about a month ago. And I have just had my first competition, inter-club. A good experience indeed.

Squash is not tough to pick up if you have the basis of badminton, and to me, easier since I have been playing tennis before. It's somewhere between the two. But then, it's something pretty tough to master. Skills are just a basic; later it's more of tactics playing, and it would seem more like playing an action game.

The Squash Club gang, very nice and happening people. It seems like an integrated gang... new people, old people whom I have never talked to before (>.<) And surprised that there are more people who know me (and pretty sorry I never knew them.. :P ).

The games were even more cheery and exciting with them shouting and the make-believe bettings... LOL~

A great day, a memorable event that would mark e good ending of my last semester on campus. :)

Thomas Cup Fever~

As always the tournament has almost got me nailing to the TV for the few days. But this time, it was different. We got to watch the match LIVE!! All thanks to the cousins who got the sponsored tics! (Thanks to Jati.. lol)



The cousins and other relatives headed down for Thomas Cup Semi-finals, which Malaysia team was involved in. A disappointing one though, as expected, as our team lost to China team by 3-0. Not even a bit of excitement about the match.

Well then comes the exciting part. The love-to-stalk me noticed an ex-player of the local team, though not knowing his name (arghhh~). And later, noticed Rashid Sidek too (though first time really seeing him, I was confirmed it was him as he gave me a nod ;) ). And they were heading in and out of a staircase.
So, it means the staircase IS important! It must lead to somewhere!!

Curiosity kills the cat, but we went down anyway. And it did us good. We caught Lin Dan!! I was pretty surprised as I did not expect to clash into him, and thus finding myself standing there staring at him, until my sis told me to take his photo. But unfortunately, our turn did not come to have a snap with him. A huge pity... But anyway, this encounter changes my impression on him. Somehow he isn't so arrogant as he shows himself on court, considerably pretty friendly towards the fans. Thumbs-up to Lin Dan! =)

Leaving the place finally after being ushered away by the security, we caught Rexy, the M'sian doubles' coach too! He was cool in snapping photos.



Uber Cup Finals as well as Thomas Cup Finals wasn't in our list, but hey how lucky we were, getting 'leftover' tics from other cousins who weren't gonna catch the show. So sis and I spreed to the stadium, an hour late, but managed to catch Hyo Jung's match. Terrific she is, and also the Korean team, surprisingly! And rather happily saw them hugging away the much anticipated glorious Cup. =)

We were good to have found a seat beside Korean supporters. There was a gang of 2 korena families who were pumping oil for their heroins. And I actually interacted with some of their kids! Haha~ My first time speaking Korean to Koreans!! And yes, I was tongue-tied... But they were really cute ^^



Of course, we weren't there just for the matches :P Lucky enough to see Chen Jin exiting the stadium for a snack outside, and woooot~ we flew outside too! So so excited to be snapping a pic with him!! And then an autograph for each of us as well!! Hahaha... the rush was worth it!



Towards the end, during the prize presentation ceremony, we sneaked to the VIP section to get near the players' section. And thus, very near to Bao Chunlai!! Called out his name and he noted! Well.. he is definitely a big hit. Some others got his autograph on t-shirt!

Finally Thomas Cup Finals! This time I was really for China team~ And a damn huge crowd it was for Indon supporters!! Good enough matches, there were rubble sets which created much excitement (unlike the semis), and in the end China won it beautifully.

After the prize presentation ceremony, we waved crazy goodbyes to the Chinese players, who responded well. Was so close to a handshake (or hand-touch) with Lin Dan.. >.<

Stalking? Tried to, but it seemed rather hopeless. We are still sane people, knowing we shouldn't be going here and there. So we caught up with some players' standies instead =.=


And in the end, I didn't find my Yong Dae around. Apparently he didn't join the event? Hah... I wonder...

Best of experience anyway!! XD Waiting for next one!!

My first Broga Hill Climb

It wasn't supposed to be a tough climb, but the situation that I am currently in is giving me a lot of trouble, and even more serious now.

To fit in the early morning schedule for the climb just to catch the sunrise, I had a stay-over at SL's. And yes, my parents would let me stay over for a good reason, just not to keep it often. Troublesome but fun to be there.. haha. Thanks to SL for sharing me a roof ;)

The climb was a quarter of way through estate and jungle, while most of it was soil steeps and steps. Seems easy as it isn't a high one, but I still prefer the hill of Cape Rachado, which is a jungle-trekking type (let's omit the mosquito bites), as there were trees around to hold on to... :P



With my terrible imbalance which have been a problem after boat-rides, Somehow it haunts my fear of falling off when nearing the peak. It was even worse when getting down, adding on the losing control of the legs. And I finally arrived back down safely. No falls, no sprains.



It's a pity we didn't catch the full sunrise, as part of it was blocked by clouds. Nice views though, a sense of greenery is pleasuring. Eager to proceed to the stony peak, however considering the body conditions and the challenges to get down the hill, I let it be a compensate for a next trip ;)




At least to call it a victory when we see to height that we climbed...

Skates

After nearly 10 years, I finally get to skate again! The last time being in Beijing, the underground of China World Trade Center Complex.

Truly have been longing for it, though seeing the crowd in the small skating rink is not comfortable. It was tough having to avoid crashing into people, and to get used to the professionals who fly over everywhere. Yes they are scary, and I wonder if they are around to help or to scare people off balance. whew~

And the price to pay for being brave. As I had done with roller-skates, it was rather easy to speed up when the floor was clear... and hence tending to fall. And the lack of braking skill! It was rather hard to learn.

And now, my knees are buried within dry ice, for the sores and the colorful black and blue and red and... plues my stiff neck and cramped shoulders... hoho~

Yet there comes my crave to dig out my roller-skates. I wonder if they are still in one piece or parts of them melted away... >.<

Longing for the next trip ~ XD

Baby steps

Can't help it. Keep staring at the computer screen, at the email.

Overwhelmed, excited, anxious, nervous.

Haha. I dunno whether I should laugh or cry. Or shiver.

Will be a hectic beginning of the new semester...
With my first job interview in 3 weeks' time.

Gambateh people!!

对牛弹琴

很少对着人弹琴，更少对牛弹琴。
偏偏这几天就发生了这种事。

对这一个抗拒着全世界的人说话，不就是这样吗？

可是，这是个正常人啊~ 更无奈啊！！

快快教我怎么和一个正常的人。。or 牛。。。说话吧！！

Runner Robot Competition

Yet another project that has gotten me on nerves and running around.

All ended sound and well.

A successful event held by UCSIU IET Student Chapter, the Runner Robot Competition. That's the cool part of Embedded Design System for Mechatronics, coz you can never have a "Multimeter Competition" for the E&E students... urghhh...

Anyway, seems like out stopwatch timers modules that have spent us more than fifty bucks per set was only used for the first round. Yet that was the most boring part (but most critical part to get marks) of the competition.

Thanks to the participants and the crowd for bringing colors to the event. It was fun to hear people cheering.

And full credit to the team who made it! And of course, the support of the student chapter and advisors behind this.

A critical semester it made, yet another experience. =)

Somehow my stomach hates ECD tests. There goes the gastric again right before my Midterm test.

Or probably it just hates exam more than the brain does.

Let's hope it doesn't happen for finals.

Feeling like a zombie~

Good Luck everyone~

고맙다

Thank you.

For sparing the time right before your test to make my day.
The simple yet meaningful one, especially at a stressing and mentally-collapsing time now...

Thank you for the wishes and greetings...
Thank you for reminding me today as my birthday...

my CNY

Successfully abandoned my blog for a whole month.
Thanks to the load of Final Year.

Now to write a little about CNY. A simple reunion meal, quiet yet different. Grandma wasn't one of the cooks now because of her health. A much simpler lunch, but it was good to see grandma eating, and more with us.

Since when have I missed her this much... Do get better, we still wait for your 'bak zhang'. =)

It's can be fun to get with the kids. They are getting older now (so am I...), probably that's why it's easier to get along with them (and get sense into their brain..?) Haha...

And the lots of open-houses by them and by us, getting us busy eating or preparing.

And how I miss the ice-cream feasts (every day every meal) and the singing marathon!

And seriously, miss CNY a lot.

Looking forward to getting back there soon.

Unplanned Downtime

The last thing that should happen this critically packed week, is to get sick.

Yet food poisoned, the very day before my first test of final year.

Terribly not studying, terribly trying to sleep, yet can't do both well.
Miserable.

蠢

竟然相信你们的话。

讨厌自己总是顾虑得太多，为什么要想`想`想得那么多？
为什么顾虑到你们，却被说成优柔寡断？
为什么一向来要我做的事，现在却以其反过来咬我??
为什么。。
为什么。。。



因为我太差劲了，不值得你们多看一眼。。。





很烂的心情，该往哪里抛？

爱与不爱

悄悄站在门外
静静望著你发呆
你闪烁的双眼
看著一片海 笑起来

从来不对你说明白
害怕你会被伤害
也许我不应该 站在这门外
所以我们才默默分开

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛
我们都无话可说
你现在的快乐
不是因为我 我很难过

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛
那就松开我的手
故事走到最后 期望你更好过
请你忘了 曾经有我

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛
我们都无话可说
你现在的快乐
不是因为我 我很难过

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛
那就松开我的手
故事走到最后 期望你更好过
请你忘了 曾经有我



爱与不爱
演唱 - 阿哲
词曲 - 黄威尔

Woohoo!

Finally watched the movie. First time of a movie outing in a cinema at Kedah, not too bad after all.

And the movie, quite well for a local production, and I guess the actors & actresses, , are just being themselves.. hehehe~ It sent us laughing away since we sat down and all the way til the end, and the good thing is, there's a nice story-line to go with that fits the season. And what makes it good is it's relevance to the society, and basically a visual form of the programs on the FM ^^

With the good result, I guess there is the expectation next time. I do hope they won't be repeating the tricks or out of ideas, since this one is already packed with many.

A good movie trip for my little vacation. =)

1.23

It was the fun that I missed for the few long months...




Except what the monster did that is costing my life.


*

Realize I cannot expect you to understand, at least not all of you.
I'm trying not to wander too far.
Hoping someone would pull me back if I do.

Fragility

I didn't know... How could I not know...

A chat with a long-time-no-see-and-chat friend, a terrible review of incidents some time ago and long time ago.

First, a group coordinator of the KMT who passed away due to an accident, probably a year plus back.

Then, a group member of KMT who left us as well...
Just two months back.
And it was the terrible tragedy at Kampar waterfall.

Hard to believe.

Though I wasn't close to him, but to hear it and see the name, it is heart-breaking enough.
Anyhow, it was almost a month that we were in a group.
He was the star of the group, significant enough to be recalled of his actions.
Yet I'm reluctant to watch the videos now... I can't believe this hyperactive guy isn't around anymore...

Recalling the fact that I haven't quite been in touch with the group... and there was not much heard of this news from the rest of the members. Somehow it wasn't quite known?
And the FB will remain an 'awaiting friend confirmation' status.


Life's unpredictable. What's done now, does not necessary be significant the next moment.
Yet you will never know what would happen next, so you try your best now.
Confusion of mind, fragility of life.


It's a pity... a huge pity.
Though it's late, hope you rest in peace, Yew GC.

'10 Resolution?

As the colleagues advised, enjoy your life in university when you can.

Been a couple of years that I didn't exactly think of a New Year's resolution.
So shall I let this be?

"Enjoy and make the best of the University life, Final year or not, whether it's work or play."

A tough one, but depends on attitude, I guess...

Happy New Year and all the best, everyone!