After a hectic day, what's worse than having cats-and-dogs rain pouring out there, and you getting stuck in the LRT station for more than one and a half hour?
While trying to make time for studying for tests and more tests as well as meeting deadlines of assignments, what's worse than having virus attacking your computer, not able to access to anything on it, getting crazy over the stubbornness of the Internet Explorer, and not haivng anyone really understanding how serious the problem is.
Now, I can only borrow pc from just anywhere... a new pc will taking super long time. And worse off, all my coursework saved in the dear old pc are in great danger. All the assignments and info I've put hours and days and weeks of time in...
No one understands the situation. No one understands me...
I wonder when I will just get crazy. Tanjung Rambutan waiting for me...
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Sunday, July 22, 2007
party out~
That was more than a week ago. It was Porson's birthday, and we threw him a surprise party~!! Haha... haven't been having this stuff for some time. It was fun of course...
And to introduce my gang of friends in Engineering...
Tada~!!
There was supposed to be a cake at the bottom...ehehe...
Almost everyone was 'dressed well' for the thingy. Haha~
The majority of gurls in my batch are all here... ;)
~posing~
It's a pity we are gonna shift next semester. Will be missing this place so much... no more basketballing & badmintoning...maybe.
And to introduce my gang of friends in Engineering...
Tada~!!
There was supposed to be a cake at the bottom...ehehe...
Almost everyone was 'dressed well' for the thingy. Haha~
The majority of gurls in my batch are all here... ;)
~posing~
It's a pity we are gonna shift next semester. Will be missing this place so much... no more basketballing & badmintoning...maybe.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
frustration + upset + headache
Been so stressed out recently. Have never been so disappointed with myself. There were times, actually...
This time, I'm totally upset with myself.
It's like back to those times when I couldn't remember a thing in the textbook. Now, I seem not able to solve any problem at all, although I kinda understand. And it was the test where I had most sleep time before that...coz I was halfway giving up...shouldn't be, I know...
And the clumsy me. Hurting myself while doing the project was okay, but breaking things wasn't in my schedule. I am so upset with myself... so so upset... and so so sorry to Lana for spoiling her beautiful dream...
And now, the course planning bringing such a headache to me... to finish fast or to drag. Since we have less courses to take compared to the Mechas. And so, if we follow their plan, then we will most probably be finishing faster. But I, the 'usual' unconfident me, am worried that I cannot cope. AND COOP! To do it next year or during the next next. AND my coursemates drove me crazy....ARGHHH~!! They are just so optimistic and takes everything easy...pressure for me...
All these giving me headaches...real headaches... even the course planning itself. It's so hard to please everybody.
Yet I don't get to please myself...
Especially sleeping.
This time, I'm totally upset with myself.
It's like back to those times when I couldn't remember a thing in the textbook. Now, I seem not able to solve any problem at all, although I kinda understand. And it was the test where I had most sleep time before that...coz I was halfway giving up...shouldn't be, I know...
And the clumsy me. Hurting myself while doing the project was okay, but breaking things wasn't in my schedule. I am so upset with myself... so so upset... and so so sorry to Lana for spoiling her beautiful dream...
And now, the course planning bringing such a headache to me... to finish fast or to drag. Since we have less courses to take compared to the Mechas. And so, if we follow their plan, then we will most probably be finishing faster. But I, the 'usual' unconfident me, am worried that I cannot cope. AND COOP! To do it next year or during the next next. AND my coursemates drove me crazy....ARGHHH~!! They are just so optimistic and takes everything easy...pressure for me...
All these giving me headaches...real headaches... even the course planning itself. It's so hard to please everybody.
Yet I don't get to please myself...
Especially sleeping.
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Wakin
Not-very-excited but long-waited concert. Wakin 20 Concert! Yesterday at Bukit Jalil.
It was a day that Emil Chau Has been in the entertainment circle for 20 years and 1 day. Memorable indeed. And so, he presented a long list of hits which kept him in the line famous and powerful all these year. Included quite a number of numbers which I wasn't familiar with... especially those Cantonese hits. But all the way, I marvel his soulful voice. Enjoyable~!
Though it was quite a boring act, I was fishing away during some times, when he sang unfamiliar hits, of course. But there are events which lighted me up! Haha...
During a time, when he was singing and playing his guitar, a guest artist appeared... CHENG LEE~!! [FYI, he is now a well-known composer who wrote songs for Rynn Lim and Emil as well~] He looked good!! *drool* He sang along the songs composed by him for Emil [Ai Mei Gui] and [Wo Men Bu Ku]... Then, a special treat for the audience... he presented an unfinished song of his composition!! VERY VERY MARVELOUS~!!! It was the part of the concert I enjoyed most! His has a great talent~ Heehee...
And then, at another interval, Michael Wong appeared! He was shining~!! Ahaha... He presented an English oldie, [Top of the World] with Emil, a song he was preparing for his upcoming English album. Nice nice... As he was a huge fan of Emil for long, he granted his wish, by letting Emil autograph on an album of Emil's released in year 1994... in the form of a cassette! So cute~ ;) Later, he sang a hit of Emil, [Gu Zhen Nan Mian] (if I'm not wrong...hehe).
The last guest artist (so many guests...) to appear was Nicholas Teo. Though he said he was easy on stage, I noticed that he was nervous while singing with Emil. [Haha....singing with your idol, don't play play...] After that, a seemingly unplanned procedure, He called Michael Wong (who was watching the concert..) and Cheng Lee up on stage for a group song of [Zhen Xin Yin Xiong]. Looked really cool~
It was a concert very well worth it - 4 hours long!! No colorful stage, but with some confetti and fireworks once in a while. Cracking of jokes by Emil...wonder why his songs are most very sad...
A great exposure to a long-term artist~!! Great time...
It was a day that Emil Chau Has been in the entertainment circle for 20 years and 1 day. Memorable indeed. And so, he presented a long list of hits which kept him in the line famous and powerful all these year. Included quite a number of numbers which I wasn't familiar with... especially those Cantonese hits. But all the way, I marvel his soulful voice. Enjoyable~!
Though it was quite a boring act, I was fishing away during some times, when he sang unfamiliar hits, of course. But there are events which lighted me up! Haha...
During a time, when he was singing and playing his guitar, a guest artist appeared... CHENG LEE~!! [FYI, he is now a well-known composer who wrote songs for Rynn Lim and Emil as well~] He looked good!! *drool* He sang along the songs composed by him for Emil [Ai Mei Gui] and [Wo Men Bu Ku]... Then, a special treat for the audience... he presented an unfinished song of his composition!! VERY VERY MARVELOUS~!!! It was the part of the concert I enjoyed most! His has a great talent~ Heehee...
And then, at another interval, Michael Wong appeared! He was shining~!! Ahaha... He presented an English oldie, [Top of the World] with Emil, a song he was preparing for his upcoming English album. Nice nice... As he was a huge fan of Emil for long, he granted his wish, by letting Emil autograph on an album of Emil's released in year 1994... in the form of a cassette! So cute~ ;) Later, he sang a hit of Emil, [Gu Zhen Nan Mian] (if I'm not wrong...hehe).
The last guest artist (so many guests...) to appear was Nicholas Teo. Though he said he was easy on stage, I noticed that he was nervous while singing with Emil. [Haha....singing with your idol, don't play play...] After that, a seemingly unplanned procedure, He called Michael Wong (who was watching the concert..) and Cheng Lee up on stage for a group song of [Zhen Xin Yin Xiong]. Looked really cool~
It was a concert very well worth it - 4 hours long!! No colorful stage, but with some confetti and fireworks once in a while. Cracking of jokes by Emil...wonder why his songs are most very sad...
A great exposure to a long-term artist~!! Great time...
Friday, July 13, 2007
helpless
Please. Please tell me what to do.
I really duno what I should do.
I am so helpless now.
I have no place to go. I cannot do anything. I have no one to talk to.
I have four years of this hectic life ahead. It's only the beginning, yet I am feeling the hell out of it...
It's no use talking to them. They only accept their own reasons. And twist the truth, making the matter worse.
I am so occupied in the mind by the heavy coursework. I am so stressed by the distance I have to travel everyday.
Yet, many a time, undesireable situation takes place.
Especially recently, when there are fewer people at home.
And we become the 'victims'.
I'd rather be hanging around at U, unlike previously, when I would be rushing home everytime the class ends. Friends are always the best resort, through them, I can temporarily ignore the stress I am facing. But easy times never last long...
I have a feeling of being forced to move out.
Yet it seems like they know I would not move out, so they are taking advantage of my weakness, my attachment towards them, against me.
Move or not move?
If I move, I will face some obstacles, monetarily, like the basic needs. And I might need a notebook, which will cost me a fortune.
If I don't, I will have to face all these every now and then, stressing and torturing myself physically and mentally.
Things just aren't as simple as you think. Many people do not understand my situation.
And the worst thing is, everytime I face this problem, I have no one to resort to, to talk to, to get advice from.
I have no control over my life, and my time.
I have no freedom... at all.
What shall I do?
I am so lost...
I really duno what I should do.
I am so helpless now.
I have no place to go. I cannot do anything. I have no one to talk to.
I have four years of this hectic life ahead. It's only the beginning, yet I am feeling the hell out of it...
It's no use talking to them. They only accept their own reasons. And twist the truth, making the matter worse.
I am so occupied in the mind by the heavy coursework. I am so stressed by the distance I have to travel everyday.
Yet, many a time, undesireable situation takes place.
Especially recently, when there are fewer people at home.
And we become the 'victims'.
I'd rather be hanging around at U, unlike previously, when I would be rushing home everytime the class ends. Friends are always the best resort, through them, I can temporarily ignore the stress I am facing. But easy times never last long...
I have a feeling of being forced to move out.
Yet it seems like they know I would not move out, so they are taking advantage of my weakness, my attachment towards them, against me.
Move or not move?
If I move, I will face some obstacles, monetarily, like the basic needs. And I might need a notebook, which will cost me a fortune.
If I don't, I will have to face all these every now and then, stressing and torturing myself physically and mentally.
Things just aren't as simple as you think. Many people do not understand my situation.
And the worst thing is, everytime I face this problem, I have no one to resort to, to talk to, to get advice from.
I have no control over my life, and my time.
I have no freedom... at all.
What shall I do?
I am so lost...
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
With schedule packed, still managed to sort out an hour or two for the interview with Rynn.
It was a time so sien trying to call in to the radio station, until I started to go fishing. Then the voice of Nic woke me up~ Aha!! Finally! My effort paid off... I get to chat with Rynn on radio~!!!
And basically, I was just talking CRAP. If any of you heard it, you'd think I am being too pressured by my coursework (in a way, this is true) til I talk like that... Haha... wonder why I just love to kacau people nowadays, even with Rynn! Naughty me...
But then, I was so touched and happy that he encouraged me to keep up with my guitar learning. That was after I expressed my wish, my dream... a ridiculous one...
"I have a wish to play guitar and dueting with Rynn."
The first time revealing it here. No one really knows of it, obviously it's a very rare chance of it being fulfilled. But I'm glad I had Rynn known of it. =)
Back to the interview. Soursand too called in. And rather interestingly, she spoke Malay with Rynn! Ahaha... It was fun listening to Rynn's 'kampung' Malay language, as he described it, comparing to Soursand's version which is with 'ink' ( 有墨水)!
I bet by now my image to Rynn has been polluted... all thanks to myself for crapping nonsense...
If Rynn ever recalls me, I do hope he remembers me and my guitar, not all those crap... hehe!
It was a time so sien trying to call in to the radio station, until I started to go fishing. Then the voice of Nic woke me up~ Aha!! Finally! My effort paid off... I get to chat with Rynn on radio~!!!
And basically, I was just talking CRAP. If any of you heard it, you'd think I am being too pressured by my coursework (in a way, this is true) til I talk like that... Haha... wonder why I just love to kacau people nowadays, even with Rynn! Naughty me...
But then, I was so touched and happy that he encouraged me to keep up with my guitar learning. That was after I expressed my wish, my dream... a ridiculous one...
"I have a wish to play guitar and dueting with Rynn."
The first time revealing it here. No one really knows of it, obviously it's a very rare chance of it being fulfilled. But I'm glad I had Rynn known of it. =)
Back to the interview. Soursand too called in. And rather interestingly, she spoke Malay with Rynn! Ahaha... It was fun listening to Rynn's 'kampung' Malay language, as he described it, comparing to Soursand's version which is with 'ink' ( 有墨水)!
I bet by now my image to Rynn has been polluted... all thanks to myself for crapping nonsense...
If Rynn ever recalls me, I do hope he remembers me and my guitar, not all those crap... hehe!
Thursday, July 05, 2007
认识我吗？
我发觉，我好像很喜欢折磨自己。总是为一些小事烦恼，然后生自己的气。
很多时候，真的不知道自己真正想要的是什么。要的得不到，不要的总是缠着我。。。
最近脑袋总是没得休息。完了考试，又得烦观摩团的事儿，要不就是准备下个考试，做实验报告。在家的时间也不多，却还得看别人的脸色。
又总是当替死鬼。被冤枉，被诬赖。
偏偏在低潮时刻得遇见一些不想见的人。我知道，我不该这样子，可是他真的很烦啊~！！不是我不想帮他，只是他太依赖人了，总是等着别人’把食物送进嘴里‘，而害得人家
没饭吃’。
我承认我是个怪脾气的人。我是愿意帮助别人，但我不喜欢以spoon feeding的方式教导，我选择给他鱼网，让他自己做。毕竟这是application的东西，不懂得运用，就没法自了。但他呢，还真‘聪明’，总是跃越过我的位子，找拉娜去！因为拉娜会很好脾气的一步一步教他。虽然，她也是受不了，才让我‘帮帮’她。结果，那位名为‘聪明’的先生，怕了我吧，宁愿去找拉娜。。。无力。。。
或许在看这篇文章的人都吓跑了，哈哈~！我不是要欺负或虐逮人啦，帮得上忙的，我会尽量帮忙。
其实我不知这样做对不对，只是觉得这样子不会帮倒忙，害了别人。不过那位先生还真是很烦呀。。。教我该怎么做来‘甩掉’他呢~？
很多时候，真的不知道自己真正想要的是什么。要的得不到，不要的总是缠着我。。。
最近脑袋总是没得休息。完了考试，又得烦观摩团的事儿，要不就是准备下个考试，做实验报告。在家的时间也不多，却还得看别人的脸色。
又总是当替死鬼。被冤枉，被诬赖。
偏偏在低潮时刻得遇见一些不想见的人。我知道，我不该这样子，可是他真的很烦啊~！！不是我不想帮他，只是他太依赖人了，总是等着别人’把食物送进嘴里‘，而害得人家
没饭吃’。
我承认我是个怪脾气的人。我是愿意帮助别人，但我不喜欢以spoon feeding的方式教导，我选择给他鱼网，让他自己做。毕竟这是application的东西，不懂得运用，就没法自了。但他呢，还真‘聪明’，总是跃越过我的位子，找拉娜去！因为拉娜会很好脾气的一步一步教他。虽然，她也是受不了，才让我‘帮帮’她。结果，那位名为‘聪明’的先生，怕了我吧，宁愿去找拉娜。。。无力。。。
或许在看这篇文章的人都吓跑了，哈哈~！我不是要欺负或虐逮人啦，帮得上忙的，我会尽量帮忙。
其实我不知这样做对不对，只是觉得这样子不会帮倒忙，害了别人。不过那位先生还真是很烦呀。。。教我该怎么做来‘甩掉’他呢~？
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Sleepless
Only managed to finish my self-designed clock at around 4am. LAck of knowledge and experience in photoshop...hah... The design was unsatisfactory, especially the color.
Had less than 2-hour sleep. Woke up early to go for my passport application. Got my passport made in less than 2 hours! Hehe... My first passport since 7 years ago~
On the way to University later, caught a familiar face at the LRT station. Guess what, it was a friend I got to know in Beijing! A Malay friend who used to be my classmate. Somehow, he recognised me (unusual~) and still remembers my name (that is, one of my thousand nicknames). Memories rush into my mind, and I start to miss Beijing again~
Thought this wouldn't be a bad hair day, I was wrong. The reason for not having lunch was not becouse I was feeling full from the tosay (whatever) I had earlier, but because I was starting to feel ill.
Reaching home, the pain in the stomach increased, a sign of food poisoning. Great, food-poisoning again. That I couldn't sleep well. Suffering indeed. That's when 100 Plus comes into use. 3 glasses down the throat, and I felt better. And I'm now here. hehehe...
~Yey, I got my passport!~
Had less than 2-hour sleep. Woke up early to go for my passport application. Got my passport made in less than 2 hours! Hehe... My first passport since 7 years ago~
On the way to University later, caught a familiar face at the LRT station. Guess what, it was a friend I got to know in Beijing! A Malay friend who used to be my classmate. Somehow, he recognised me (unusual~) and still remembers my name (that is, one of my thousand nicknames). Memories rush into my mind, and I start to miss Beijing again~
Thought this wouldn't be a bad hair day, I was wrong. The reason for not having lunch was not becouse I was feeling full from the tosay (whatever) I had earlier, but because I was starting to feel ill.
Reaching home, the pain in the stomach increased, a sign of food poisoning. Great, food-poisoning again. That I couldn't sleep well. Suffering indeed. That's when 100 Plus comes into use. 3 glasses down the throat, and I felt better. And I'm now here. hehehe...
~Yey, I got my passport!~
Sunday, July 01, 2007
10 years
It's July 1, 2007. 10 years Anniversary for Hong Kong's return to China.
It's been 10 years. The memories of 10 years ago, on June 30, 1997, is still fresh in mind.
Remember that particular night when we were watching the ever amazing fireworks at TianAnMen Square from the dining room while watching the tv a countdown celebration concert.
And today, I'm watching the fireworks on the tv screen. Not as exciting of course. And the fact that I have a mid-term paper tomorrow. And that I have not finished my design, all thanks to this computer.
And I shouldn't be here anymore.
It's been 10 years. The memories of 10 years ago, on June 30, 1997, is still fresh in mind.
Remember that particular night when we were watching the ever amazing fireworks at TianAnMen Square from the dining room while watching the tv a countdown celebration concert.
And today, I'm watching the fireworks on the tv screen. Not as exciting of course. And the fact that I have a mid-term paper tomorrow. And that I have not finished my design, all thanks to this computer.
And I shouldn't be here anymore.
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