Saturday, October 29, 2005

Fanatic frenzy

For those who know me, I'm actually really into the Malaysian Idol, especially currently Daniel. Then before that but still going on is Ken, along with some others like Westlife and Backstreet Boys. True, I really like to listen to my favourite artists' songs, sing along, watch their video clips, try to catch their gigs (though it's 1% that I really do catch them).

Compared to my friends at school, I feel that I'm really a fanatic person. I would be talking away about my idols, and sometimes knowing more about the entertainment news more than my friends do. Maybe it's the fact that We are having SPM this year, and many of them talk about books and studies more than entertainment stuff.

But you know what, there are actually MORE fanatic people out there. I don't quite get online these days, but when I do, I often visit Daniel's forums. Surely, there are so many fans of his there, they are actually larger fans. Some, or many of them, would be there at almost every place which Daniel would appear publicly, until Daniel could actually remember them. ANd of course, they are very up-to-date about every news and TV appearance and radio shows etc. of Daniel, and would post all of them in the forum. Ohh, the very crazy thing (and somewhat wu liao) thing they would do is, countdown. Huh?? Well let's say there was a segment about Daniel on 8TV E-news last Friday. But before 6.00pm, many forumers were online in the forum, and they were counting down for the TV programme. They were like '30 minutes before the show', '15 minutes left', '10 minutes from now'... ... WOW! What the hell? So free of them! Nothing to do at the end of the year, and start counting down... sweat...

Thinking back, maybe I would also be the kind to chase Daniel around... I want to, but I've got restriction from my parents. Anyway, That needs a lot of time and energy, most important - money, which, I don't think I have much to spare. But the 'countdown', no...

p/s: Sorry if I insulted anyone.


Saturday, 29 Oct 2005 (3.00pm)

Friday, October 28, 2005

Again!!!

OMG! Bad luck on me, is it?
This morning I discovered the wire of my braces was broken again. Damn it, got the whole long process of going to the clinic again. Obviously I hate doing that. And It took me more thasn one and a half hours to get home and settle down.
What's even worse was that the dentist wasn't there! She went for holiday to Taiwan! Wow! A big problem when some patient is in trouble! The unlucky one was me. The nurses on duty hesitated whether to give me the treatment (changing the wire that is), since this was actually the dentist's job. They finally did, and I was so nervous, afraid that something might go wrong. The finally finished the job, after quite a long time. Hopefully nothing will go wrong in this period of 2 months!


Friday, Oct 28 2005 (2.56pm)

Monday, October 24, 2005

ELS Farewell Party

Saturday, Oct 22 2005

Didn't turn out as fun as I thought. Maybe I got down from the wrong side of the bed, I was blur and blur since the morning. I couldn't quite get into the situation (whatever...dunno how to describe), or rather, I lost myself... not that serious though.

I arrived at the destination quite punctually, finding Sujintana (ELS President 2003) there. I sort of got mixed up of her and Jann in the beginning. Thank god I 'woke up', if not 'yu sai'. Later I got quite 'yu' also for a few times, wonder if anyone noticed.Geesh...

The schedule went on like this : The introduction session (of the members), the speeches (very short), then answering Chen Leong's complicated question (the seniors did that job), the games (a little bit blur), then more games (coz the food had not arrived yet), The eating time (yeah! Pizza!), then some of them started spraying the 'stringy' stuff around, then giving away the Best Member Award (one of them went to my sis!), then end. Started (was supposed to) at 9.00am, ended at around 1.00pm.

Overall, it was fun, really fun. Really thankful to all the ELS members who prepared for it. It left me a pleasant memory of them, and hopefully ELS will keep shining, and shine more.

Friday, October 21, 2005

The Goodbyes...

It was full of laughter and tears today, but overall it was a sad day. The special day was our Graduation Day, our ‘supposedly’ last day in school, except for the SPM days.

A lot happened, with the day starting with almost everyone cheerful. We took some photos (too bad I didn’t have a camera). We were then seated in the activity centre where the ‘celebration’ would be taking place. Such a long wait. The ceremony started, with the national song and school, then the ‘boring’ speeches. Then it was the prize giving time for the best subjects students. And HELL we cheered so loudly for our class students! Even the other classes started to cheat (duhh??). I guess this was the craziest ceremony the PIBGs and principal has ever seen in school. The situation got so high when it was prize giving for the co-curriculum students. We cheered, we shouted, we screamed, and some of the boys even stood up on their chairs! That was especially for our favourite Class Monitor! Then, Kassendra even cheered for KS’s sisters and my sister in Form 6! She was so crazy and high!

There was the band performance, then the singing time. Graduation song, which we had been ‘trained’ for a few days. Not much emotions yet, until the time when we were to leave the place (the school actually). The music started to wet my eyes. I got even more emotional when I saw Kassendra cry, like many others, start crying. Couldn’t hold back the tears, really. Even Pn Zurina was in tears when she bid us goodbye. The girls hugged her. I saw that the Pn Chin was also very dull, sad. Pn Ng, didn’t cry. Not thst I saw. Despite the flying tears, we took photos anyway, who cares. I became okay gradually. Kassendra was still sobbing. More photos. And more. We were deaf to the PK’s order to leave the school immediately.

I hugged my girl friends, all of them. It feels good to hug, though it was a goodbye hug. It seemed a promise to stay in touch. A promise of friendship. Suddenly, I got into tears again when I was bidding goodbye to a friend. This time I was really sobbing. Only the girls cried, so funny. Jane who was not crying in the beginning, only started to feel sour in the end, funny girl.

The class was to go to McDonald’s in Jalan Pahang for a gathering. I couldn’t join them, as my mom doesn’t allow. I can only hope to be present at a gathering after exam, if there’s ever one. I called someone there just now, seemed like they are having a good time. Felix’s voice could be heard, haha!

May our classmates’ friendship last as long as it may. All the best to all of them!


Friday Oct 21 2005 (3.43pm)

Condelences

Bitter news. The wife of our Prime Minister passed away.

My deepest condolences to the PM's family, who have lost a great and wonderful wife and mother. Datin Seri Endon passed away at 7.55am on Oct 20 2005, because of breast cancer. Her body was buried in Putrajaya.

May she rest in peace.
sadhu! sadhu! sadhu!


Friday 21 Oct 2005 (3.00pm)

Sunday, October 16, 2005

A memorable day...

Actually, today is an anniversary for me... and my family. Haha... it's our five year anniversary for coming back to Malaysia from Beijing, China! Thinking about that, I miss Beijing so much... *sob sob*

School day today, hate to wake up early on Saturday morning. But I decided to go to school todday, and actually the attendance of our class is almost 100%. Haha! But then, our mian purpose (for many of us) is for the PJK periods (physical education...= sports). As a bonus, we had 2 periods extra! Muahahaha!!! So syok!

Of course we played basketball. It was so cool we get to use the whole court this time. We (girls) are not really as good in playing, but we enjoyed ourselves. It was what you would expect from a girls' basketball game, with screams and fighting for the ball. The screams... thanks to Kassendra...that was how she acted as the defence...haha. She was always good in scoring, and has big energy to throw the ball. Elvera and Norain also joined us, though they were fasting, but they played for a while only. Elvera was just as cool, shooting the ball using only one hand, and with a really good pose! And Charmainne... dunno what happened to her, always so energetic and tried to grab the ball in every way she could... gosh I got hit by her many times already...haha! Jane was as cute as ever, funny poses and behaviour, and often managed to get hold of the ball. When I changed team, she would often come to attack me...hehee! My performance wasn't good...my skills are getting worse. But I did enjoy myself, I loved running with the ball. It feels so cool, along with catching and passing the ball. Too bad Lee Eng became tired later, our coordination wasn't quite good then.

During the 5th period, we didn't really entered class, 'coz we were busy taking photos! Yeah, we took photos with our English teacher, Pn Karithiyan. Later we even got Pn Soong (S . A. of Students' Affair) And then the Principal Mr Chu to take a snap with us. It seemed as if the whole activity centre is filled with our voices. Guess it was okay, since more than 2/3 of the school was absent. heehee...


Such a happy and exciting day, but I wonder when it will come again. We are going to graduate Form 5 soon, when will we have the chance to meet up again? Especially in school, where we have our past memories... Those who are not taking Form 6 next year, are most probably leaving us, leaving me. I still hope and hope to have the chance to gather with my 5S1 friends.


Saturday, Oct 15 2005 (10.15pm)

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Class nightmare

It seems a peaceful day, until...

A normal day for most of us was yesterday, maybe, that's before the chemistry periods. We were sharing the DK1 with another class, while our classrooms were under repair. During our chem periods, the next class was having Bio, which the teacher N was as usual teaching loudly. Somehow our chem teacher's voice was covered by that teacher's, so she decided to write on the board instead. It was then trouble comes. KS started to shout loudly, as if trying to go against N. Our teacher asked him to stop, but he wouldn't, and this went on for a few minutes. Even our 'ordering' wouldn't stop. He was like crazy.

Surely N couldn't resist it. She came over, and bpoth our teacher and also our class's nightmre started. N scolded KS, and us, for being 'kurang ajar'. KS didn't apologise for his misbehaviour. Later, our teacher had to go over next class to ...maybe apologise. When she came back, she sat down, and tears started flowing. My god, I was so sorry for her. I mean, she was really really upset for KS's behaviour, and she herself couldn't control it. It seems KS, and maybe also our class had created a BIG BIG trouble for her. Even I myself can't help being guilty.

Then, today comes the real trouble to our class. We are in danger of not getting good remarks for our graduation certificate. I don't mind about not getting 'Best class' or whatever for our class, but the certificate is what really matters. It is an inportant element for us in our future career, for colleges, for universities, and for 'cari makan'. Our class teacher received the complains from N and another teacher W today. And guess what, W was the person to fill the place for our 'kelakuan'. Bad news is she's been having conflicts with our class.

Of course, I too am not satisfied with some of the teachers, everyone has the same feelings, just as the teachers themselves would, with their students. But most of us just keep it quiet. I dunno where and why W have conflicts with us, until a few months back when someone in our class 'ejek' her, as she said. She is actually the type of teacher who is quite 'ba', likes to stick her nose into other people's business, my friends said. She has the least optimistic mind I guess, Always looking at the bad side. Thta might be why she really 'bu shuang' our class. Now she's the person to 'decide' our behaviour, we are DONE.

Happy lah now, someone lost his mind, set the whole class into trouble, and doesn't even bother to apologise. Like a nightmare which comes just a little while but eaves bad memories in our lives. Like the Tsunami comes without prior notice and sweep away everything and leave behind nothing but trouble. That's why, we have to keep our good behaviour, don't cause trouble, just because you are happy with it. tThink of what the circumstances will be, think of the people around you, whether they will be hurt. What happened yesterday has made a large 'blackhole' in our class, and our image. We will never be able to return it to normal. We can only fill it up with something else, but the wound will still be there, forever...

I'm so upset...



Friday, Oct 14 2005 (3.30pm)

Friday, October 14, 2005

Celebrity Chat

Wednesday, quite a happy day!

Why? 'Coz Daniel was on Celebrity Chat on 8TV at 1.30pm! See? That's why I changed my appointment...
It was so fun to listen to Daniel singing Chinese songs, since the lovely 'Forever Love' he sang along with playing his guitar on Idol Diary. And his English improved a lot. He speaks Malay even faster, like a ...train. Somehow the host Ruzy isn't quite updated about Daniel, but it seems he was okay with it. And wasn't he 'blur like sotong'?! Well I forgot what... but he doesn't really remember what he did, even it was the day before! Maybe that's one of the 'cute' side of him. hahaha...
Some of the songs he sang was Heaven Knows, Forever Love, 'Lao Shu Ai Da Mi', and a bit of 'Yi Zhi Ha Ma'. The topics were almost the same, I can't remember much, but overall, a good show.


(Wed, Oct 12 2005)

oh my goodness!

Tuesday... Oct 11.

Time for my orthodontic treatment appointment again. I had this appointment changed to a date a bit earlier, because I wanted to watch Daniel on TV on Wednesday. Haha.

It was the usual waiting and waiting for my turn. But something scared the hell out of me. The dentist told me that the wire was broken! WOW! That was really dangerous. And because of that, which happened since maybe a month ago, caused my tooth to be 'senget'! Damn! No wonder around a few weeks back while I was studying, I felt something wrong with the wires, My sis even remembered me exclaiming 'it's broken!'. I thought it was just my imagination, but I didn't realise it broken. Man... I must be damn careful now. Hopeful it won't cause much trouble.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

3 8 Club??!!

An earlier post reminds me of something... hmm... our '3 8 Club' gets serious now! Har??

3 8 Club should be 3 8 ma... always talk, talk and gossip, laughing, and bla bla bla all day. but now, the Spm is coming, seems only the president is 'active', still organising 'activities'. The vice president is...studying? maybe lah, but she's playing as well, and of course, still 'Danieling' around. I dunno about the secretary, haven't heard from her, haven't seen her online lately. About the other people, hehe...dunno, still no other posts yet, only got president, vice p., and secretary. Anyone wants to sign up please contact me. Muahahaha!

Btw, we'd better have a meeting after SPM lar... annual general meeting still hvnt had yet, then gotta arrange some activities, watch movie, yam char, cheong 'k', many many things...

Remember okay, miss President, Kassandra (soli if I spelt wrongly...heehee). The vice president ...me... will become crazy after SPM, better watch out! Hahaha!
By the way, better get a new name for the club, the current name is 'too sampat'!!


Monday, Oct 10 2005 (3.20pm)

Thursday, October 06, 2005

A tribute to...

Sounds funny suddenly starting a topic like that... but this is serious...(?)

Our Graduation day is just round the corner. It's been a really busy year for me, and even more busy months recently, though it's true I find time to follow Malaysian Idol and get online... all work and no play makes me a dull girl... haha! It's also just recently I realized that I might be parting with some of my friends for a long time, or forever. Feeling like crying now...

It's been very cool experience throughout my life in high school. I have no regrets choosing Chong Hwa to further my studies even though I have trouble catching up with Malay and Chinese language after coming back from China. I had no friends then, since the friends I made before going to China either couldn't remember me or that they are more engaged to their current friends. I was so quiet that maybe some people even thought I didn't have a mouth! Haha...

In that case, I had to find the way out by myself. Everything I did was by myself. I went to see the teachers when I didn't understand something or when I needed help... and damn bad was my Malay language then...and it still is... But my courage was boosted . I tried myself in many activities, and being a stage-fright, I actually went on stage to answer a question in a quiz! I'm actually quite shocked too looking back those times.

I'd really like to thank my new-made friends who has helped me physically and mentally. Let's start with Hui Ying. She was the top student in my class, very smart, very cute, with high aims. I am really glad she acquainted me even though my studies wasn't good. Now she's studying in Singapore, hopefully she achieve good results and have a good future.

Then comes Zhen Shi. She changed my life. A lot. I was such a bookworm (as my friends said) till Form 3. Zhen Shi was my neighbouring friend. She was really different from Hui Ying _more talkative. And she changed me (or rather brought out another me) into a more 'talkative' person. Hahaha! This twist in my life let me make more friends than before.

Life in Form 4 was...quite exciting. Met some friends Yoke Theng, Ley Juen, the cute little Jane Ley, and especially Jiun Wei, who were so fanatic to 5566 (Taiwanese group). The fact is, I don't really like the Taiwanese group at all, but then, for the sake of them, I 'ying4 chou2' a bit, it didn't turn out bad after all. I didn't really befriended the other half of the class, a thing I regret. But anyway, I was quite busy the whole year round, have to deal with Tennis Club which was quite okay, but the members of it bring me headaches. Miraculously, I survived, even 2 years of taking the post of president, whew. Somehow, English Language Society was better, though I sometimes needed help from Anna, the president, and thank you so much to her. The members of ELS were quite and more responsible, helpful, fun, cute (Joel..haha) and friendly.

This year has been a really memorable and exciting one. Our class was more united and we won some prizes in a few competitions. We found out that some people in class has actually talents in some fields, e.g. Boon Yung, our great class monitor who was very responsible, was a newbie but strong debater. Hope that his ambition to be a lawyer come true. Some friendships were made...many actually... which turn me into a '38' and crazy gurl! None other than Huoy Ying! Hello there! My oh my, I really am thankful to you for being my friend, caring for me, and treasuring our friendship. You are a unique friend. Other same type friends are Shu Wen, Woan Wei and my honey Lee Eng. Lee Eng, the 'superwoman', the "Along" or "loan shark" of the class, my greatest friend of the year, I'll never forget her! A quiet and 'guai1 guai' girl, Li Ling, the future doctor, another nice friend of mine.

I too wanna thank my other friends who accompanied me through the high school life... thank you so much. Thanks for all the help and all you gave!

Not to be left out, the teachers who have given me a lot of help in curriculum and co-curriculum. Big thanks to them.

All the best to you guys in achieving a good future!


Thursday, 6 Oct 2005 (10.18pm)

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

GAMBATAE!!!

Wow... seems like many people (friends) are having the same feeling. Stress. Anxiety. Tiredness. Fed up. FEAR OF BOOKS! BOOK-PHOBIA. SPM-PHOBIA!!!

That's what my friend told me. She has the same trouble as me. We all have the same trouble. But what can we do? We cannot change the situation (having to sit for exam), we can only try our best, study hard. The two months left is all about books. Less play, less relax. Boring. Tired.

Other than that, there's the sad graduation day. It's once in a lifetime thingy, but I might be crying then... because some of my friends will...maybe. I only hope to get a camera to take photos on that day, for memory. Many of my friends are gonna be leaving me. :(

Well, refresh your mind by thinking about our class graduation tour after SPM! YEAH! I'm really looking forward to that. I have always liked going out with my friends, and this is gonna be an exciting one. And hopefully, still planning, a Karaoke trip with my crazy friends, haha...

ALL THE BEST TO YOU GUYS TAKING EXAMS, AND MAY OUR FRIENDSHIP LAST AS LONG AS IT MAY!!!

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Daniel's Theme Song

MIMPI
Inginku lukiskan nota-nota
Laguku mengikut rentak gitar
Dengarkan suara mimpiku bertemakan
Namamu senantiasa selalu selalu
Sedalam tinggi, seluas jauh
Begitulah cita-citaku
Sekiranya kau ingin tahu
Selama ini, hingga ke akhirnya
Suka duka senyum selalu
Kita bersama punya satu
Mimpi
Dengarkan suara mimpiku bertemakan
Namamu senantiasa selalu selalu
Sedalam tinggi seluas jauh
Begitulah cita-citaku
Sekiranya kau ingin tahu
Selama ini, hingga ke akhirnya
Suka duka senyum selalu
Kita bersama punya satu
Mimpi,Mimpi
Begitulah cita-citaku
Mimpi,Mimpi Mimpi aku realiti.....
Sedalam tinggi seluas jauh Mimpi


Credit to Daniel Fans Club

Monday, October 03, 2005

Blank

Saturday, yesterday...

It started with a quite well morning, not too warm, only the classroom was not even half-filled. Then for the first 2 periods we were 'forced' to join another class when the teacher was supposed to be in ours. and there we go, being free labour... to help mark the papers. Sucks.

The day went on without any class conducted, 12 students in class and of course the teachers wouldn't teach. (Kinda regret for coming to school when I could have slept soundly at home.) half the class was studying while another half chatting.

I started with my add maths when I went blank. Blank, that is, I couldn't think at all. Is it because of the 'noise' of my neighbouring friend who was so confused with her exercises herself that irritated me, or was it that I had problems with my add maths? Oh my god, okay, I tried to calm myself down, calm down, calm down... Just look around, relax a bit, don't get too stressed...

Why did it suddenlyget too warm? and stuffy... I couldn't satnd it, I moved to another place to continue with my exercises. But still, my mind was blank. I thought of lying down for a while to get a little nap. But I couldn't. I was all filled up with numbers! Oh gosh... I'm so stressed... am I getting crazy? I couldn't talk, couldn't sleep, couldn't rest, couldn't breathe properly, couldn't think... I was drowning... someone, please help me...

I really don't know why, but I only felt like crying. I wanted to cry out, cry out loud, shout, scream, scrreeaammm...... but I couldn't, because I was in school. I had to control myself. I had to keep everything to myself. Nobody knew anything about it. My best friend wasn't at school, I couldn't talk to anybody. Nobody would understand what I was experiencing. and some people keep bothering me. I was getting fire on my head. Stop bothering me! Leave me alone! stay away from me and leave me alone for this time!

I really don't know what happened to me. all the while I told myself not to put so much pressure on myself. But... I was all blank. BLANK. I really didn't know what to do. what was I to do? Eat? drink? Or study more? Or maybe knock my head against the wall? This is all I can say, blank. Do you understand? Do you...

Luckily I arrived safely at home. I was still really down. Luckily my dad was there. I told him I was blank all over... couldn't fight back the tears... I let it out.. almost all out...


I need my confidence back. My dad planted it back on me. I went to the Ti-ratana center for a blessing session for spm candidates. I was glad I was there. I needed to support and confidence religiously. Hopefully I will get through this hard time smoothly.
sadhu! sadhu! sadhu!


Monday, Oct 3 2005 (01.35am)